final18weeks

poc lo!

2011-01-12T06:38:00.000-08:00

finally! 9 weeks of BMT are over!

i was the valecdictorian and represented the whole bmt cohort to give a speech!

my sgt major chose me to do it...i had to options , being the parade coomander or the person giving the speech! i was also the ic for recruits night . lots of pple say im my sgt majors fav boy ..well lets just say i thank him and all the warrent officers for giving me all these opportunities.

i guess im pretty well known in sembawang camp as my nickname is "an kong dua jia" givin by my sgt major, he wld shout all over looking for me sometimes. this makes queue cutting a breeze! haha!

all in all i lost about 5kg. size lost is pretty visible accordingly to everyone!

but i'm really happy that i can take this one week to catch up with my ewf friends,close friends,my family and my darling.

ive been a good boy recently attending church 3 times a week for the past 2 weeks. its a bonding session for my family and me every sunday, going to church den having lunch.

i just love east coast road, it brings back so much memories. from 1996 till now.....14 years...wow..sunday classses, my working buddies ,alter boys.

i miss my past, but i love the present.

rship has been gg very well! little arguments and loads of crazy funky time tgt.

not been taking my dear out to walk arnd for a long long time. so i promised her this friday!im looking foward to it! i know she is too!

i love it how she is so supportive of me in bbding. how she cant wait for me to prepare for my next show and all! thanks peeps for helping me settle my "business" when i was in bmt.

training:

well over the past few days ive done loads of research...i mean i always do it...but i wld like to share some interesting stuff with u guys.

im someone whom u can call a thinking bbder. i dont follow pple in whatever they do, though i admit i did at the start.now i go with logic.

some things i learnt and think is logical that may be useful with u guys.

-always periodize ur training
-volume training is crucial for hypertrophy
-not all muscle grp respond to the same rep ranges
-dont always do drop sets, restpause ,force reps etc
-how fucking effective the pull ups really are,infact all u need to build the upper back

and somemore which i will post up soon.

let me talk more on the first point.

periodization . i tihnk its impt as ur body easily adapts to ur training style and i have been stagnant for a long time as i just realise all i did was changing the order of my exercise. thats not enough. uve got to mix and match diff exercises and go through diff phases of training such as power week, hypertrophy week etc.play arnd with the reps . ur body is smarter than u think it is.

the rest shall be shared next time.

tmr is gona be time for magnum video shoot! dont laugh! my body may be small now but with all the tips i have learnt! i believe i can pack on 3kgs in the next 1 month!

back...

2010-12-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

hello people!!!!!!

its been awhile i know...a really long time.

dear gf has been bugging me to blog and i shall....

i heard there are still some pple reading this cobweb dusty old blog perhaps finding it by googling my name...

well anyway ,life is all about army nowadays..its just so sickening.

got out from tekong after 4 weeks and now im in sembawang (STC) SUPPLY AND TRANSPORT center for my vocational training. which means i have 9 weeks of bmt..surrently about 3 weeks left before i pass out.

training in this camp stinks..seriously

i know lloads of u are gona laugh after seeing this but ive never knocked it down in tekong...cuz its really...slack? the sgts are like our friends...we laugh joke arnd and all.

here its diff...basically we can expect close to 100 push ups a day. now u see the direction we r heading at...and of cuz many other quirky stuff.

the food here in STC, o dont get my started....it sucks so bad it cant suck more. well yea for the usual fat slops, its heaven..

donuts ,chicken pie, hashbrowns and fried chicken patty for bf, laksa for lunch and fish and chips for dinner....

for me...its terrible...im surviving on a chicken wing for protein....yap u get the picture of y i say its so fking tough to maintain my physique here.

what i do in camp is to have 4 shakes a day now, do some pull ups whenever i can ..and when i hit the gym, i just do some lateral raises, calf raises ,abs and more pull ups...burn some calories and build all my lagging parts.

in terms of rship wise, i wld say its progressing really well. almost 3 years into my rship with my dear girl bev.

like she says, our rship started off rocky...really rocky. loads of arguments and all, still some puppy love here and there but its more of a very mature rship now.

i only see her on friday nights and sats eversince i got into army. its tough but we r still coping well.

she is the best, always helping me settle my "business" when im in the army..a lil risky but damn which girlfriend wld help in this kinda stuff.

now in for all of u who r into bbding.

let me confirm what my dear girl wrote.

i def will be back maybe this yr maybe next.

i def will step on stage again.but as tony my close friends arnd me and bev knows...this time only when im ready...ready to set foot on the senior stage . its a whole ball game this time round.

i read the forums my gf sent to me in links.

some compliments and some criticism. some pple say that" bbding isnt abt just showing off ur best parts like "quadzilla" for eg. its about an all round well developed physique". i cant agree more.

i do have certain strong parts but many more to improve on. so it may take a year , maybe shorter maybe longer but i def will be back with visible improvements.

some pple like lex ,brandy and bev knows im already a little into my preperations. what that means, ill leave it to u to decide.

as for now not only am i struggling to maintain muscle with shit food in camp and lack of training, i am battling illness ..2nd time in a month. for all u pple out there....being sick means being in a very catablic state. so i take caution not to train as u dont want to be even more catabolic. ive been out almost 2 weeks.

and its true i read pauline nordins blog for inspiration, i think i told u guys b4, esp during my comps and all and i do still have a poster of her in my bedroom cupboard.

till than ill update a lil when i see u peeps next week!

take care ,god bless, and lead a healthy lifestyle!

I LOVE MY FAMILY AND MY BUNNY!!!!

2010-12-14T08:08:00.000-08:00

There are still people reading this blog!!
I see the counter moving..
Hahahaha.

I think more people are interested in the things he writes relating to body-building.
He is a pretty good writer and researches A LOT.

Okay! I will bug him to blog again!!!
But he is back only on Fri Nights, Sat and half of 3/4 of Sunday therefore he has no "mood" to blog..
Hahaha.

But if you want to know whose blog he gets motivation and inspiration from -
Don't be surprised. It's a girl.
http://www.fighterdiet.com/blog/
Yes Pauline Nordin!!

I find her really Awesome too.
And he put her picture - a very hardcore-looking her on his cupboard as his motivation when he was preparing for his competitions. She's still there, right in front of his bed.
He has her blog on his Iphone too..

Why?
Read her blog and you will know why!!!

You know how some guys just do this sport to look good or impress girls??
But Myren, he's Different... he's in Love with this sport..
And of course, at the start, I couldn't understand.
But as time went by, the more I went to the gym and the more I learnt about weight-lifting, the better I understand him.
This probably is 1 of the factors why our r/s went from Good to Awesome... and it'll just get better and better :)

Who still reads this blog?

2010-12-05T05:44:00.000-08:00

I can't stand seeing this blog not updated!!
Mymy's too busy and too LAZY. Hahaha... so I shall just blog for him!
-

This is him now...
Somebody commented that he looks so "Cutie, like a baby". Hahaha that got me rolling with laughter.
So he was in Tekong a while ago and now he's posted to Sembawang to finish his BMT. After which... we're not sure where he'll be posted to.
Fridays are what we look forward to :)

So far so good...
Life has been treating him, his family and us very well..

Here's us.
Before he shaved his fur.. hehe.
Very Happy Us.

In case anybody's been counting,
Yup it's almost 3 years... only abt 3 months over more.
Time flies right? Yep!! I can't believe it's almost 3 years too...
Nothing much I can say about our r/s, 'cept that it's nothing short of Amazing.
=)

He's an Amazing guy.

-

As for the fitness enthusiasts out there..
He's still training and eating like how he should be (trying) .. Now that he's in Army, it's a lot harder. But it's only for the time-being...

He's going to be back,
Better than ever!

Maybe you'll see him on stage again ...
Maybe.
Oh Who Knows :)

Soon!

2010-08-10T08:14:00.000-07:00

Will be back to post regularly after bev dear helps me with my blogskin!

Be right back!

Time for a new blog post

2010-08-04T12:21:00.000-07:00

Bev here.

Darling,
it's time for you to start blogging properly with pictures.
And not just about body-building pls...
You have a life apart from that.
:)

You shld start showing people pictures of your family and me. kekeke.
In the past few months, we've taken so many lovely pictures, even w your fam.

Love ya.

finally !

2010-04-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

yes finally a new post right?!?!

haha so sorry pple, i have been in contest mode for half a year and during that half a yr, i had no mood for family,girlfriend ,friends or anything else.

now thats its over and i have more time, i will update more often!

right so basically what had happened over the past few weeks :

-i claimed my second gold at the nationals,though i have to say i wasnt really satisfied with my showing on that day, i wasnt really dry and i dont know...i always think i look better a week b4 conteset,nevertheless a great experience.

-brandon got a silver in jrs as he also didnt turn out at his best and a bronze in seniors....absolutly fantastic!

maybe what lex said was right, i shld skip next yrs comp and prepare more on sizing up, now that im a 2nd time champ, more is expected and i dont wanna drop the standard.

btw, it had been great staying at the grand mecure hotel suite for 2 weeks ...through the last week of pre contest and more. it gave me fantastic rest as well as a sense of calm , just what i needed.

as for my rship? it had been nth less than fantastic.now that im not in a calorie deficit mode ..surviving on 50g carbs a day for weeks on end eating the same amt of calories like an adult female. now my mood had dradtically improved along with the normal regulation in my own hormonal response.

celebrated my 2nd yr at ichiban sushi ....my dear and i went out a hell lot just muching on food here and there and i have to say the past 2 weeks had been really different and happy for the both of us.

more to post next time...its brief as i wanna watch a documentary now!

final 4 weeks

2010-03-12T19:25:00.001-08:00

the last 4 weeks

this is the final push towards the nationals. carbs will be lowered again,cardio will be double sessions and i will feel all cold and chilly again therefore i have bought my long sleeve shirts and jackets for training.

just hoping to drop my fat % another 3% for now.

fat% had been fluctuating due to the absence of fat burners. ure heard me right, all i had been surviving on was lots of coffee powder and green tea. yesterday my bodybuilding .com fat burner arrived and i cldnt wait to take it.

it came in this white simple container that look so dam bloody budgeted that i was skeptical.

and guys believe me, i have tried tons of supplements , when i say it works it really works cuz of almost all the brands of supps i tried, i only can say that gaspari nutrition novedex xt and superpump 250 works like hell. the rest didnt do jack shit for me.

so this is the first time im experimenting with this brand.i wont disclose the brand as of now till after comp as i wanna make sure it works.

all i can say is the label states"pharmacist formulated" take 1 cap on empty stomach and 1 6 hrs later.

so i belittled the small purple pill...i mean come on its just one small pill? what shit can it do.so i doubled up the dose and took 2.

holy crap...20 mins into my fasted early morning cardio, my body had non stop goosebumbps even almost an hr after cardio as im typing this...my body is still having goosebumps....i feel jittery and trust me....i cld nv wait for my morning cardio to end always....but today.....i felt like i cld do an hr non stop.

i cant describe to you how much of an ernergy boost its giving me.its like someone slapped me in the face 20 times, its like im high on marijuana literally! i felt like i was floating on the treadmill!!!

as i was walking home....i felt so alert to the point i was high?? can i say that? gosh...so when i say smth works....trust me...it works !

as for the fat burning properties...ill wait till the end of the week to state how many% i lost.

i tihnk i better stick to the dosage recommended ...i seriously dont feel so good right now!

letting go

2010-02-22T21:24:00.000-08:00

ok just a brief update on what has been happening in my life for the last 2 weeks

well ...looking back i was possessive back than.

my dear just asked me is it that i dont love her anymore thats y i dont bother if she talks abt other guys,wear low cut tops and go out with her guy friend one on one.

if it was me a yr ago? i wld have blown my top off. now? i say do whatever u want...it doesnt really matter to me. cuz i know at the end of the day as long as she doesnt abuse my trust and comes back to me eventually? whats there to complain aabt? so it aint that i love you less or anything, its just me leting you have your freedom and the trust that have developed over these 2 yrs.

how time flies....almost 2 yrs into our rship with our 2nd yr coming next mth....just a week out from my nationals...so we decided that we should skip it and celebrate it after my nationals instead. whats worse than celeebrating a special occasion with me eating salad and looking like a zombie...using my last ounce of energy to go out?

valentines day was simple, brought her to araab street for some labanese food...yummy ! though i aint salad.....again... haha! ambience is fantastic!

got my tattoo template discussed with the tattoo artist too and i have decided on a full back oriental dragon of which i have paid the deposit....now im just awaiting for it to be sketched and for my comp to be over to do it. im haveing some doubts though....as if i want to compete again....i may need to place it else whr...cuz its a bloody full back we're talking abt. so it may be positioned on my chest delts and arms instead....will reconfirm this weekend.

my dear has been complimented on her muscular arms! haha....its getting bigger and bigger no doubt...just lack the cuts...but we will work on that slowly.

sch has ended..and honestly? i dont miss anything abt it... i feel so happy and free like a bird....right now im onto some discussions with certain pple with some business opportunity plans...we'll see how things goes in the next mth.

opportunity had been knocking on our door...with press releases set to be held really soon on certain magainzes and all...and if the three of us manage to pull off a big one this nationals, it wld be our first step to stardom.lets hope all things go smoothly . fingers crossed.

thats all for now folks

you will never succeed

2010-02-20T22:01:00.000-08:00

Do this and you will never succeed:

Restart, restart,restart. Did you blow your diet during the friday and thus reason you can just as well keep on thru out the weekend and start over fresh again on monday?

Do you constantly work on your perfect solution which is so perfect you can never ever execute it?

Do you sneak in a special treat (oh it’s just 90 calories) almost every day?

Do you eat a little more because you train so hard?

Is your stomach jiggly because you always have pms 365 days of the year or you’re just fat honestly?

Do you use the bike because it’s easier and you can SIT DOWN and read?

Using machines instead of free weights because the latter are more difficult?

Are you sleeping in and missing your cardio more than once a week?

You refuse to realize your cheat days of all-out-eating will keep you fat?

You truly think you’ve got so much muscle, THAT is why you are thick? Not the fat on top huh?

Nuts are healthy so you eat a few servings a day. And you wonder why you won’t lose weight????

You go by “conventional standards” and thus eat according to what a person in the 50’s ate when being physically active with labor work and all, and you wonder why you are not leaner?

Do you heap on olive oil because it’s healthy fat? Some one told you it is good so you overdo it?

A little snack here and there won’t hurt huh?

You always forget to do cardio, but you do get in your weight training and this is key huh because stimulating the strong muscle mass burns the fat FOR you?….

You could never decrease your calories to get leaner: oh oh, you’d be less strong!!!! scary huh!!!

You don’t lose fat even though you train cardio once a day? Hm, try two times a day for three months and you’ll see…

You give up if you have not leaned out after 7 days.

there are many more ways to get no results, but let’s keep it short.

-pauline nordin-

on the road to the nationals.

2010-02-20T21:49:00.000-08:00

7 weeks out

"words of wisdom"

-It’s funny when sometimes people think I overdo the cardio or i eat too little carbs. come on...you think i dont know what the hell i am doing?

-There is a reason why so few walk around in super shredded condition: it takes so much dedication! And dedication that never takes a break!

-Bodies that are super shredded are LIVING on the edge! Get it! You are not supposed to have a lot of energy left after you’ve done your training! The price you pay is you gotta train thru tiredness, you cannot rely on food for energy, food is for recovery only! You cannot take extra carbs or fats to train harder, you need to recruit your mind and your willpower more than food!

-By moderate training and moderate calories? Hell no! EXTREME results require EXTREME measurements.being someone who is"moderate"? sorry that aint in my callibur.

-ive done so much research over the past few mths ,i think i am a walking fitness dictionary. but as i have come to realise, is that the more I read the more I know I know nothing...cuz its so true. things get so complicated and u just simply complcate urself but looking for the most effective fat loss diet,various forms of carb cycling, loading,zig zag diet , hiit cardio ,lild cardio ,high carb low fat diet, zero carb all fat diet and all...it just gets to you...what ive realised is...Knowledge is power, but true power is always applying the knowledge instead of just having it.

one thing ive learnt....is that there are no two ways about getting ripped. u have to be on a calorie deficit diet. you have to drop ur carbs...no question. however...the biggest mistake that i have made during my experience in muscle war ...is that i am afriad of refeed days. so many pple think im crazy loading anywhere above 200g of carbs on my refeeed days, when i have been going on 50g for 5 days. there u go...me looking stringy on stage .

now ive learnt. your body needs to have a refeed and they r ur best friend. right now...im gg 60g on low days and almost 350grams on my refeed days. those who disagree can shut the hell up cuz i know mybody the best.

moving foward

2010-02-08T19:45:00.000-08:00

yes i know i know...

i have not been updating even after winning muscle war , i shld be eager to post up pics and all.

that aint really the case la.

cuz i knew that i only showed up at 60% of my max potential due to extensive depleting and not feeding my muscle enough,stuff to do with water and sodium that made me flat as a pancake that day. but i gotta say adrian did a fanstasic job in helping the both of us come in tip top condition.just some stuff i got to ammend as not every fits a certain approach.but i gotta say my buddy did.

well for those of u that didnt know what went on in the past few weeks, i won the muscle war 2010 above 170cm cat and my buddy got 2nd in the 2010 muscle war below 170cm cat. though i still feel that he looked better that zhen wei... its alright! only 3 pts lost.

well where do i go from here?

its been more than 2 weeks and i gotta say i have maintained absolute control on my diet as im only 80kg right now, meaning i have only put on 4kg in the past 2 weeks and my bodyfat % is at 8.4% checked yesterday.pretty good ar?

loads of extensive research done hrs a day everyday, trying to get it right this time round. 8 weeks out from the nationals, and im taking a higher carb approach this time now at 250 grams and not dropping below 150 grams this time...whr i dropped up to 40 grams 4 weeks b4 contest for muscle war. this time im going to"grow" into the show and look tighter and fuller carb loading with 100grams more this time round compared to the previous .

as im 8 weeks plus out and 8.4% bf, im going to go in mw hopefully at 4-5%...going to be as ripped as hell and tight this time round! haha so i can put on a gd show and let everyone remember it!

right and now that sch is ending, zen brandon and me have thought of starting our own personnel training business along with the help from magnum and some others, we do hope to get our website up and running by the end of this mth.

the reason as to why we want to start this business up is not because of $. its because we are really passionate in what we do and we want to see it as a gift to any future potential clients. i train at true fitness and california fitness, i have seen the way the pts do their training and boy...sometimes i get really mad. clients pay so much and get those kinda worthless service whr the pts talk more than they teach ,they dont act according to what they preach,just take a lk at their bodies. and they are practically spotting their clients from rep number 1.

for us ,its different, we want our clients to have mind muscle connection,to really have their session worth their money ,get what they r paying for and its no nonsense no jokes kinda training. u get what u pay for, u lose weight, u gain muscle . all talks can be done after training but when u train, u get ur ass down to it.

the rates are very reasonable and we r going to take up pour pt certs for it too.

i will post more details on our up coming business as soon as its done.

hope u guys can show support by recommending ur friends or family members or colleagues to this program . thanks!

4 days out

2010-01-19T08:18:00.000-08:00

before dieting:

12 weeks out

8 weeks out

4weeks out

2 weeks out

4 days out

depleted depleted depleted.

thats what i am now.

no energy to even walk.

light headed when i stand up.

lost the retardness in me according to my darling.

friday-tuesday 50g carb.

finally tmr will be a carb up....my muscles have been screaming feed me u asshole.

tmr ...will be the final test....

cardio and circuit training with 0 food intake no carbs not even protein.

but after hell....i know im gona enjoy my potatos baby.

its been 3 weeks of 50g carbs with only 2 170g refeed days per week....i really hope it paid off....

ive done what i possibly could,taken my body as far as it can possibly go.

now it all lies in the hands of the judges...

please...award me for my hardwork...

i really want this.

special thanks:

even if someone else beats me to this,i just wanna say,thanks to abel and edmund for sponsoring us,my dear gf for the shit she has to go through and the lovely card she gave me,adrians guidance,brandons opinions and advice and being a lovely training partner all these while,im sure the top 2 spot is urs. travis advice and encouragement. max and others who always wanting to see my condition and giving me sound advice and not what i shld improve on and what im good at.peter who got me started in competitive bodybuilding. benson for accomodating to my timeslot of training,all the best to u too.elton for his advices along the way,lex for giving me his protan and sound advices, weihao ,for never failing to request to take a look at my body everytime he books out of camp and the very sweet thought of calling me in camp just to ask me to hang on for a few more days.last but not least,my parents,without u,i wont even be doing this sport. thanks for all the advices,support in each and every single way along my journey the past 12 weeks. the things u do for me are incredible,the food supplies bearing and understanding my temper and attitude and not complaining a single time,never failing to understand and comprehend never failing to encourage me whenever i feel like crap ,like i cant make it.no matter what the outcome, i will give the both of u a big hug on comp day itself...and a huge treat once i start working.i love u guys...to everyone else...thank you v much.

13 days

2010-01-10T03:46:00.000-08:00

sometimes...i wake up from a nap..

thinking im losing it...

i sit up thinking wtf am i doing.

i walked to the bus stop...wanting to go to the tattoo convention...

suddenly....my legs just brought me back..back into my room...taking my clothes off and just lying on the bed just too exhausted...

waking up gettting msgs of breakups and all...

den i looked at myself in the mirror...what has becomed of me...

these days ...sometimes it becomes so bad....i literally do things out of a routine...a regime ...more than what i want to do...i do what my body tells me to do...whr my mind doesnt play a part inwhat i do anymore...

we got our sponsorship...

finally smth we worked so hard for...at the brink of insanity...and finally we r starting to get recognise for what we do...

we dont go to extremes for nth...we expect results...we expect nth less than a top 3.

right now...i can tell u ...u can get a the hottest supermodel in the world to strip...and u can put a plate of hamburger and fries beside her...without choosing..i will go for the food...

thats how bad it gets.

its time for u to go away for good

2010-01-04T07:58:00.000-08:00

just as i was feeling alil down today,i happened to chance upon a very interesting interview and short documentary on kai greene and also read some fantastic articles from pauline nordin.right now i feel accomplished,know what i wanna do,what i shld do and i shall shut off anything that hinders me away from my goal. my eys are only fixated on one thing.

1)It is never cool when someone tells you degrading comments.

It is never cool when someone tries to make you feel confused and insecure.

if you sense they are not contributing but just taking from you,when they purposely try to neutralize you by making you feel, look, appear, act or interact more blandly, it is time to say good bye for good.

2)I cannot afford to focus on tuning in to the drained sensation, the “I’m so tired” comment I try to ban, making it a NONpart of my vocabulary.

You are what you think. You become what you think.

For me cardio was never a “walk in the time”. Every session has a purpose, every session has a reason, a target, a goal. I am just as anxious about those as I were at repping my deadlifts better than ever or increase the weight in the squats. But this is another game…. I see stars, yeah, I need to hold on to the machine because honestly I’m embarassed I’d fall some time….. I’ve never passed out in my whole life and I won’t now either but the thought has crossed my mind.

I FEEL ENERGIZED, I AM FULL OF ENERGY. You become what you think. So I choose to think I am invincible.

wtf

2010-01-04T02:38:00.000-08:00

without any sense of sensitivity.

"eh why u so skinny? what happened to you? wa lau u dam skinny now man."

those were the first words that were said to me when i first stepped into school.

for some reason, i felt confused, i didnt know how to react. i tried to smile and pretend it was nth but truth be told,i swallowed hard and was sorta paralysed with all the emotions gg inside me,i simply didnt know what to say and certainly didnt bother explaining.

those words kept ringing like chruch bells in my head through the whole lecture.

those few words felt like a thousand knives into my heart.

20 days

2010-01-03T06:15:00.000-08:00

while waiting for my eggs to cool i shall post a short one.

gosh....20 days left....not even 3 weeks.

its great having everyone telling me i look so much better compared to 3 weeks ago...drastic improvements made in terms of condition and vascularity. however i know the existing water retention problem has still yet to be settled.

uping cardio to 1 and a half hours morning and night and sometimes after training,i do hope to bring my body fat to 7-8% come comp day.what i see in the mirror...well...im only 65% satisfied....i know...that isnt a good thing to say 20 days out from comp!

the last time i took my fat% it was 10% on the dot...and i tell u its a real bitch bringing down ur bf% to single digit when u r not taking stuff like ephedrine ,clen and especially when u ran out of fat burners.

contemplating if i shld go for nationals...well ...i doubt so..its time to enjoy life...work and earn some$ to save and so many other plans in mind...getting my tattoos...going for a short trip with my friends and family.eating out with my friends.training up for my napfa...for the command school i so wish to aim for.

but b4 all that blurs my vision,i betta stay on track.

its a gd thing to know that thr is competition in ur category...i know theres a formidable guy training at the same gym as me...and brandon knows he too has at least one formidable opponent hes gg up against.

i guess....nth we can do abt gaining muscle for now...

its about who is gg in as the person who is coming in as the most peeled and detailed guy.

one thing that really irritates me is when pple ask me r u sing this and that or have u started using this and that...when i reply...they say things like..no wonder ur condition improved so much.its really fucked up cuz they dont see beyond those stuff... they dont see the hrs of cardio put in...10x more than them ,the change in diet and training and supplementation .. it irritates me too when pple say u know,u gotta improve on this and that bodypart gota bring out this and that...i mean,come on...its 3 weeks out and ure still telling me this crap? wtf can u do in 3 weeks ?

i know by saying to be anything after first position is pointless....its putting a hell lot of pressure...but seriously...who trains to get 2nd?

with the opening of 2010.....lets all hope ill start it off with my dreams coming true....with a bang.

holidays coming to an end.

2009-12-26T10:13:00.001-08:00

2 and a half week holidays.

it was awesome.

well what did i do during my 2 weeks plus? nothing.

girlfriend went to vietnam for almost a week.

but thats ok.

its awesome because i exceeded my expectations...exceeded what i planned to accomplish.

my plan was to lose 1% of body fat per week..and drop 1kg of body weight per week.to get a tan whenever possible.

i did however not accomplish to get my tan....which explains why i dont look potentially at my best but its ok.

so by right,i shld have lost 2 % of body fat during my hols....however...after taking my inbooy today...i dropped a whopping 4+% of body fat just during my short holidays. that to me....is an unparalleled achievement...if u really manipulate ur carbs...ur body ,though feels like dying and giving up on you...can do wonders... currently at 10% body fat if i continue to drop fat% say at 1.5% per week...im probably gona hit 5-7% body fat come comp day.

someone in the gym asked me today...so what do u think r ur chances of getting into the top 6(finals) honestly...im 100% confident...its a matter of top 3 i suppose. my cat has the most number of pple participating. and since the age gap can be worlds apart....i know i wont be the biggest....but i will do my very very best to be the rippest on stage.

xmas,or no xmas...thrs still cardio and heavy training. the gym may seem like a ghost town...but know what? it feels great...it feels great cuz u know u r the elite...rain or shine...festive seasons or not...u get in and get ur job done.slack and others will take the opportunity to overtake you.

4 last weeks...my dad reminded me today..."wow...its getting realll close isnt it?" hell yea it is....too close...4 weeks to others is a mth....its still considered long....4 weeks to us? its the final touch ups...nth much can be done.

with 4 weeks to go...3 weeks will be for us to continue to sculp and chisel away any unwanted fats or shld i say....any visible fats on the body...the last week? its really really to just manipulate ur sodium,carbs,water,potassium...to really make u into a sculpted statue...

its great to know my gym buddy is doing really well...bringing on a complete package with some really strong points that may leave his competition in the pump up room. haha...as for me..lets wait till that day to find out.

last but not least,i wanna say srry to my parents , my dear beverly and all my fellow friends around me who had or has to go through the ups and downs of my whole prep..and trust us...the downs...are really...fucked up.

thoughts

2009-12-15T09:18:00.000-08:00

its 1am,while waiting for the 10 eggs i just consumed to digest partially b4 heading to bed,let me pen down my thoughts

its nt abt what i place at the end of the day, whether or not i win the gold or whether i may be out of the finals,i mean of course everyone trains to win, no one trains to lose.having said that, i wld say,its more of the journey ,the journey over the last 7 weeks that had taught me so much and got me to interact with many different kinds of pple.things that ive learnt over extensive research,trial and errors,consultations and exchanging of tips face to face or online made me mature over the last 7 weeks more than what ive learnt over the course of the past 4 years.over some research and meeting up with pplean,i learnt that tips from some bodybuilders who swear by distilled water....who keeps advising me to take em..its total thrash. it deflats you and does nth else. i learnt that i shldnt be more than 10kg above my my on season weight if i wanna retain muscle and not crash my diet,i learnt that i can still take tuna ,steak and eggs and not like what some senior bodybuilders who keeps telling me off ,even pple who have nv competed b4 telling me that i shldnt consume them. i learnt that i shld drink gallons and gallons of water and not sip them as they make me watery .bull fuckin shit as muscles r made mostly of water. i learnt abt many diff drugs and which r best for what ,their uses and half lifes, i learnt that you dont need to pen down everything u eat,but listen to ur body and trust the mirror go with ur gut feeling,if u feel too deflated...up ur carbs...if u feel that u need to lose more or ure too bloated drop ur carbs,increase ur cardio frequency.i learnt that u shdnt do bullshit training like high reps that other senior bbders tell me but keep ur training short and sweet and as heavy as possible with maximum effort and contraction and so so so much more...and many more to come in the next 5 weeks and 3 days.

and of course along the way, i met many nice pple like iswandy who is always there to monitor my progress ,always acknowledging my presssence whether or not i see him,unlike some dog trainers at cali gym.adrian travis elton and lex who r always there to help me whenever i have any queries. my competitors whom i knew recently who added me on facebook as well as in school.and of course many entertaining stuff along the way such as....having to cut 15kg in a period of 4 weeks, 5weeks out and no abs but love handles. know shit abt the 7 compulsory poses, train and diet but not aiming to get into the top 6. things like that....makes my life right now pretty entertaining.

tempers flare easily ,not that its a psychological thing cuz it really isnt,im telling myself every min that its all in the mind..heck but my body responds differently...right brandon? calorie deficit low carb diet along with drugs that increases ur already agressive nature and hungry state = a fucking pain in the ass...

yea...gf complaining that im returning to the horrible self i once was in the relationship,weights flying arnd the gym ,yelling at each other ,wanting to break whosever neck that stares at you blatently whether in admiration or disbelief or discontent but yet we dont feel the slightest bit apologetic.

well well....5 weeks left...when all is said and done,wonder what kind of a trial of destruction we will leave behind....and how much cleaning up we have yet to do....till than....all the both of us know is....times running real short...and its a hell of a race against time.

6 weeks

2009-12-12T19:54:00.000-08:00

6 weeks out. its make or break time. isnt it cool frendals? 2 training partners going for the same comp and doing our best of bagging the 2 golds of diff weight class? im not saying that that will happen,but at least i know thats what we r trying to make happen.

last week nth much

had a shoot in sch helping my friends friend. ended being baked in the sun with this other model claud..smth.....dont know whats her full name ...dam long....from some....i dont knw...russian xtry...178cm 17 yrs old...fucked up shit.haha

yesterday met up with adrian tan along with frendals we cldnt believe cuz it was too good to be true...went to polo and guess what..it was really him! so he advised us on dieting,usage ,potassium loading ,sodium and all. but he did mention smth..if our condition was gd enough we dont need to do any manipulation..just cruise in. hes huge........ not thick but fucking broad ....shoulders like cannon balls...veins r like.......omg...haha...overall a really nice guy.he asked us to go to cali studio to show him our posing...kinda reluctant cuz we have still alot to do!

anyway... my dear had gone to vietnam and...i wish her to have a safe trip....love u baby

you want this?

2009-12-06T06:34:00.000-08:00

you want to win the tertiary weight class? you want to do well in the coming exams?

let me ask u this qn,are you working ur fuckin ass off?

cuz u can get all the advice from all the "gurus" of weight training on dieting, training, drugs posing and coloring ,you can ask the best in ur class to help you out with ur work, but do u think all these will help u suceed if u are not the one putting the effort?

let me put it straight.wake up ur fucking idea.

no such things as the best in class who will help u ace,no such thing as a fucking guru in bodybuilding.

the secret is pay ur dues,u will get what you deserve. you fuckin cut ur calories trainin ur ass off and have ur daily jabs ...tell me ull still look fat at the end of the day? u study the whole book in and out ,out and in ,u understand every fuckin content of ur book or notes ,dont tell me u still wont do well? well if ure gona tell me that,ill make sure ill fuckin slap u to wake u up. cuz u r insulting my intelligence and lying to urself.

you can either set ur goals and get the fuck down to it or u can wish in one hand and shit in the other.

awesome weekend

2009-12-01T06:39:00.000-08:00

been awhile

had an awesome weekend with my dear.first time going to arab street and all,been there cause i had an appt with moon from blackemperor tattoo studio,fantastic hospitality and great artwork of cuz i will wait after comp when i get mine done den will really push him to the public if he really is awesome.

thanks dear for accompanying me!

great place to chill! must go dere after dieting...kebabs and all are killing me!haha!

had a bbq on sat with sherman ashley dear claire joy and cant remember the other 2 girls name .truth or dare was..........WTF...explicit explicit and too honest! haha!

nt to worry...i did not touch the food there. brought my chicken breast there.

let my dear play with make up on me haha....im fine with anything one la really....as long as shes happy ,as long as its private and no carrying of handbacks haha!

will post some pics here a week from now....so far 6% bf down but still another 6-8% to go....im really rushing for time....

with so much to do and so lil time....im really going insane.

morning cardio+ evening training+ evening cardio+ sch+ rush to suntan in these kinda bllody weather + exams= drainage...

spent a bomb on my supps these 2 mths....

shrinking like crazy over time...and i realise..anyone can be big in the off season,but what matters most is how they will look like in the on season.

progress

2009-10-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

just wanna share some pics i have ...improvements from 2007 to 2009 b4 diet and 2 weeks after diet.

now some 2007 pics

and now 2 weeks into diet 2009 and guess what from 2007 -2009 my weight jumped from 85kg -88kg only

2nd week into it.

2009-10-25T03:58:00.000-07:00

the weekends had been great,had 2 quality days with my darling and cooked her a wonderful and healthy meal last night.

she has been great during workouts...doing whatever i tell her to,60lbs for many men for a squat seems pretty heavy it seems...judging from their puny stick legs and the fucking pussy weight they handle.its not for her.from supersets to giant sets to compound movements ,she will do em all.

last week after legs training i got fucked up pretty badly due to the clen that i was on.it fucked my leg up so bad i had to call an ambulance to transport me to the nearest hospital. after that incident,i swear im nv going to fucking touch that motha fucking piece of thrash again.

dieting...has been like a share market...body respomding up and down...my fat % did not drop this week...and that was the last straw...a mother fucking wake up call with a slap on the face to me. my weight shot up by 1kg and my fat remained the same...yes slight increase in muscle mass but what the fuck 1kg increase in a week? ive got to be outta my mind.

and so this week i decided to change and switch things up a lil...going on a carb cycling program.by hook or by crook,im dropping my fat % to 17 %.

and who do i blame? no one else but my mother fucking self. everyonce inawhile,i lose control of myself,i fuck up my whole diet plan just by straying alil of course cuz i was lazy and i wasnt disciplined.

no one told me i had to go and prepare for this show,no one told me to spend 1k on substances,no one asked me to eat shitty things like chicken breasts ,its becuz i chse this path,a path many entered but never came out alive.and if i dont come out alive,ive only myself to blame for the inner demons that have consumed me along the way.

its time i reflect.

2009-10-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

day 1

2009-10-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

on work

work has been great,ive just quit my job as a cook at the handburger to concentrate fully on my competition.the pple there r really awesome...some being alil fucked up but most were great.im missing fox already,he taught me so much in the 2 mths ive been there.

on love

we,ve been awesome so far,ive got my pay and i bought her some amino tabs to take for training and a dress and i got an adidas pouch for training,totally love it.gona elaborate more whe i have the pics.

on life

well my parents just left for taiwan along with my granny and everything is left to my brother and me,hes out 3/4 of the day so im practically alone at home. washing the dishes,cooking my meals for the whole day,washing my clothes mopping the floor hanging the laundry....haha kinda enjoy doing it actually.cldnt go cuz i need to prepare for my comp

on training

well...had some fantastic meals the past few days...cuz i know..im not gona touch any more of those for3mths or maybe 6 mths if im going for nationals.today is day one of dieting and cardio,it feels great, to wake up at 830am cardioing at nine,coming home to cook my meals ,taking a nap and gona train again at 3pm.yea this is gona be my life for the next 12 weeks.

im paying my dues,working my fucking ass off ,i know its all gona be worth it.yea...at the very end of the day,the light at the end of the tunnel,we will see why we did this ....we arent going to be afraid to fall...cuz there in only one option...to take the stage with pride and gusto...with shock and awe ..with a bang.and yes....i do believe we do have what it takes....brandon and i...to be the best we gota train and diet to beat the best...and thats what we're doing...no such tihng as failure...

with each descent into the trenches ...with each descent with backk breaking workout and weights...i say hit us with everything you have....we aint gona break.

be not the meek

2009-09-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

starting 15 september ,life wld be a routine.

for those that wanna know what my diet wld be like,everyday it wld be like this

830 meal 1
1130 meal 2
1.30 meal 3
530 meal 4
8pm meal 5
930 meal 6
11 meal 7
12 bed

meals wld consist of eggs ,hell lot of broccoli,chix breast,beef and salmon,sweet potatoes and potatoes.

did almost an hr of planning on my carb cycling . calculated my bmr
" BMR = 66 + (13.7 x weight in kg) + (5 x height in cm) - (6.8 x age)"
to be 2007 calories

x 1.6 to determine my activity level which is quite high due to the nature of my work,to be 3211 calories.

so carb on a moderate day wld be 238 g on a high day wld be 125 % of moderate and low days to be 75 % of moderate.

protein wld remain at 285 g and fat at 40g

every 3 weeks carb wld minus off by 20g.

right ,for the past 2 weeks,i personally found that my rship had been like the stock market,loads of up and downs,sometimes i get so frustrated i feel like saying fuck it and just go home,but i will do my best not to repeat my past mistakes and just avoid situations.

brought her to the flyer ,cofe club and pizza hut for dinner along with my other friends.

overall i still did have a fun time with you my dear.

o and did i tell u guys,we went to the spore flyer and the guy working at the ice cream store was so nice to us. he gave us each a free ice cream that cost 7 bucks per cup and i secretly said if only we had free coke too...and guess what....we had 4 soft drinks for free shortly after....what a nice chap! we dont even know him.

a necessary evil

2009-09-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

just watched finished a documentary on steroids.

its called "bigger faster stronger" which brandon transferred to me.

u guys must really watch it if ure in the game of sports to relate.

its so true.

its considered tabboo not only in america but the world...even in singapore.

remember 2008? the dark yr for singapore bodybuilding? the media just wants to put the blame on the pple that cheats.the 6 of em including my friend....on channel news asia,on news paper.

the s**f is just being plain ignorant.

when u look at the asian competition ,looking at pple like wuttichai and the rest, u say they r natural cuz they passed the drug test? uve got to be kidding .its proven that they cover up if they fail steroid test from the documentary.and yea u may test some of the athletes that are "clear" from substance but come on....dont be naive. we all know whats going on back there.

i just cant stand it....certain pple whom i have not seen and dont even know say things like he saw me taking steroids....like wtf? since when do pple inject in public...and since when do i know you? naive ignorant pple in the gym who are just jealous and they refer you as obsessed,all brauns and no brains or a guy on steroids or gay. ive heard all the ugly names. y r they like that? cuz they do not have what it takes to be what we are.

once ,the period where hydher trained,i was confused over y he refused to take em. he lived by his morals and i really did not get it.at first i admired him and wanted to do the same,but as yrs pass,as u get to see the whole picture..performance enhancing drugs are just part and parcel of the game.do you really think u cld beat someone whos taking if ure not taking? the answer is...no way in hell.

its the ugly truth.

so how is it called cheating...when everyone is doing it?

so dont just label someone who is on it as a cheater cuz hes bigger than you,its what we as athletes got to do cuz u as the audience want us to.

so cool

2009-08-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

mike patton is fuckin talented. he is the voice behind i am legend monsters,left 4 dead zombies and the darkness game.

just completed the game the darkness... pretty sick gameplay.

gory ,sadistic and all...love it.watching my "gf" being shot in the head while i am being restrianed,getting tortured by getting my face drilled by a driller.eating the hearts out of victims,loads of cursing and swearing and not forgetting that image of the three crucified invertedly with blood spewing from the mouth called...well...the crucified...sick shit..but love it!

sick but im not down....far from it

2009-08-02T08:10:00.000-07:00

down with the flu bug.

yeap out from training cuz my muscles are failing me. trying with all my might to do six pull ups....and it was agonizing just doing six.push ups gave me a headache...skipped some body parts buts its ok.

i may not have any appetite,but i forced myself with food....being sick is not a fucking excuse for one to slack on his diet.

forced myself with 25 eggs,a salmon, lots of rice and 3 protein shakes. i feel satisfied.

come tuesday..its time for redemption.

one vid brandon sahred with me..i find meaningful....here it is...

nv give up...nv lose hope...

stress

2009-07-27T09:27:00.000-07:00

4 days to the launch and i think this has become somewhat of a solo mission.

fuck you man for just sitting there for the past 17 weeks doing nth but shit,seriously what in the fucking world have u done ?have u contributed anything? no ....serously...no man.fuckin useless.all that comes out from ur mouth is pessimistic comments on how this shldnt be done,thi cant be done,what if we try and it fails,what if we come out with so many ideas and cant execute them.so tell me what the fuck is ur fucking idea? huh? 0 u ass.

and u.why isit everything i say ,it seems like u know every god dam thing ,u seem to have done it b4? in this case why isit i dont see any model ,any trial and error and shit ass prototype from you? why isit so?stop it with i did it b4 crap already...if u did so many things b4 y the hell r u studying?go be a designer or smth. and some things that come out of ur mouth ...they r amazing cuz i dont know what the fuck r u trying to say? or whcih part of my fuckin sentence u dont seem to fucking understand. fuckin narrow minded.

its ok.i know u r bed ridden from fever and u have a week of mc. cant blame you . just hope u recover soon and share the burden somehow someway.

nth much

2009-07-27T05:33:00.000-07:00

just wanna say i love you mom and dad.u r the best.

i love todays dinner loadz.

appreciate the support u guys give...the freedom and everything.its just crazy.

and for 60 yrs of age,my dad puts 50% of singapores male population to shame especially those my age.doing 8 full pull ups.

and i had fun yest hao.

i love u dear,good job on ur project.

recover soon clare,hope that burning fever subsides soon.

great!

2009-07-21T06:50:00.000-07:00

yea great .

well the vice president of the swatch organization seems please with a few of our ideas.

happy sure.

but we thought we were gona produce max 2 of em model.

now they expect us to produce 11 of each model,like how the fuck are we gona do it!?

i myself have not tried doing the book model myself,all i can hope is that it will work.gona experiment with books and styrofoam.

at least we have one idea more or less done. as least the launch on 1st august is sorta taken care of.

and for all that shit we r gona do,if we succeed,we better deserve at least a high B from you guys.

from now till august ,im gona be kinda busy so i wont have the time to blog.

and u asshole ,stop saying everything also u do b4 and u can do it.ask u to produce a prototype u also cant seem to do it.irritating piece of thrash.

in the mean time just wanna say,whereever u are,take gd careof urself weihao.

and i love u darling .cant wait for fridays.

o and dont worry baby,she might be a f1 grid girl ,but thats in the past,and u know what my mom says if she cld be one....u cld be one too...ure way betta.

learning to appreciate

2009-06-28T08:34:00.001-07:00

its so funny how one cld appreciate the simple wonders of food when he diets for a comp.

things like pan fried eggs with olive oil taste so dam good. smelling the food from ur everyday local coffee shop is a torture and looking a tur family eating home cooked food is just crazy....

ha ha...but i have to remind myself...6 weeks left and i gotta focus on what and why i am doing this.

6 weeks left....and alot more to cut...

4 weeks had passed and i lost 3.7kg of fat and putting on 1kg of muscle...mainly from my thighs.

looking good but it cld go faster...blame it on the cardio i just started a week and a half ago....or rather blame it on me.

went to church today with frendals after cardio session and somehow during the sermon i wasnt listening just thiking back on what an awesome gf i have....all the things she did for me...bought for me and the way she cares. amazing.

suddenly thought abt the time she stayed up till 4 for a couple of days to teach me stats.

and days when i stay over whr she wld voluntarily cook my ton of eggs for me at night...wash the dishes without me asking.

ure amazing dear.

gona miss playing lan with weihao and aron once weihao gets enllisted which is like in a week.

lets play more this week b4 u go in!

haha.

till here!

happy bdae love ones

2009-06-21T19:20:00.001-07:00

first of all i wanna wish a very happy bdae to my gf,my dad and my mom! im going to post the photos up after my dads bdae so for now its just words.

seriously what a sad sad time for me to diet! so much good food but i cant eat for nuts.

right so last thursday we had a celebration by going to the science centre ! though we had limited time as it was abt to close we did have much fun! gota say my dear looked freaking gorgeous in that short dress haha!

right after which we went over to east coast park to vista bistro to have dinner where i had cerassar salad without the sauce and she had chicken delight,soup and yummy deserts.

day after we had dinner at her parents club at night and i had bloody sald again.the food looked pretty yummy though.

on sat we went prawning with weiwen and his cousins with dear. i didnt catch any cuz i was so lazy but they caught quite a few!

we den had bbq at weiwens hse and had a huge feast! sadly...i wasnt able to bloody eat again. lol

till then !

happy bdae dear once again

laugh ur guts out

2009-06-09T08:56:00.000-07:00

below are some videos that brandon showed me and some videos i found on youtube thats gona make u laugh ur ass off.

everything happens for a reason

2009-05-31T01:03:00.000-07:00

well i did not see any wrong in adding her and besides u wanna know the main reason as to why i added her? very simple.i wanted her to know how well i am doing without her.every single day every single moment take a good look at my pictures.i have friends that i can turn to unlike last time ,i have a wonderful and beautiful gf that supports me in almost every aspect in life i cld ever think of.i want to show her that i do not need her in my life for it to be complete,with or without her,totally insignificant.

jeez....what the fuck did i see in you?haha i must be blind.ure fuckin fat,fickle minded and ...well playing netball all these yrs doesnt help does it?

thinking back,i guesss everything happens for a reason,cuz i totally dig having my current love right now.

rockys

2009-05-26T23:21:00.000-07:00

i miss rocky masters

not that i miss my job as i have quit cause the pple at plaza sing are mostly fucked up,and the place is fucked up too.

i miss my first batch of ex colleagues like rachael,sequeena,michelle,nurinda,azphar,aunty jennifer,aunty siew keng,keith,indra,taufiq,siti and felix.

gosh seriously i had the most fun job in 2006.working at cine was a blast.we would have fun and laughters everyday,on days that r busy we wld perspire like hell and sometimes tempers flare,carry loads of garbage bags at the end of the day and run towards the rubbish chute.see fights and arguments almost every weekends,including staff against customers.joking arnd with dirty jokes and lame jokes that will crack us up,playing cards,playing pool after that.have some sort of political disagreement at work.clubbing invitations once in awhile.meeting up on weekends once in awhile to chill ,to have fun and get to know each other better rather than just being colleagues.having challets at like 1am after work on a weekday ,totally insane.buying bdae gifts for one another and i mean real bdae gifts.we nv forget to remember each others bdae.and of cuz i miss the regular customers,ice coffee thai mat thais and all.all of us doing moonwalks after mopping the floor,and me falling down and breaking an ashtray,me recognising the wrong person and running away only to bang into the wall.lol

gosh....seriously i doubt i can ever find such wonderful colleagues.even working at jx...totally sucks compared to this but def not as bad as ps.working in those 2 places its just hi-bye,no going out or talking on msn and stuff.gosh.

2009-05-13T07:20:00.000-07:00

was reading this in hydhers blog and i read this article before last year but i wanted to read it again,cuz its so bloody meanigful,even if u have read it b4 take time to read this again.

kinda upset after reading this,wish things wld have gone back to where it was b4 it all began whr we wld have our nice nightly talks at starbucks ,us talking abt bbding,u talking abt ur gf and talking abt "her". hope we can do this during our holidays. miss it

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else---the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'

'The coffee just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

weekends

2009-05-11T20:48:00.001-07:00

the weekends had been great...went on saturday to sentosa for a picnic with ashley ,sherman,weihao,dear, claire and myself.

and sunday met up with peter jeremy brandon and all the others including my gf! to watch the 47th national bodybuilding comp at victoria concert hall.overall it was a great show.

the juniors this yr were spectacular.xianghua did a great job getting a clear cut gold medal in the juniors and a 4th in the seniors when i thought he shld have placed a third.but u know what hes only a junior.good job dude.16-20 weeks of dieting paid off

chun leng did great,brought up his legs and clinched a second i actually thought he cld have placed 1st ,tough fight.good job too bro

last but not least the last category,all three were my friends but nigel standing beside elton and daryl is like a mini van with 2 tanks.elton and daryl were huge! one of the best juniors i have seen to date.very proportionate and very huge comparing their size and condition this yr i can say they beat roy and rays condition and size last yr hands down.they were really impressive.eltons posing was really striking love it.both were 50/50 on par ...

so roy and ray u guys gota workhard!

daryl clinched 2nd while elton clinched first.

both clinched 2nd in the seniors cat,great job guys

jonas body was what the fuck i was stunned

wai teiks body was wtf + wtf

his veins on his chest and back and arms and delts cld be seen from whr i was seated.awesome body.

i realise smth,when ure incredible,everyone will jsut shut up and watch u. everyone only pays atenntion to the first and second guy no one cares abt the rest,its the sad truth.

that being said,im glad my dear enjoyed the show,she spurrs me on when she says things like" i cant wait for you to stand on stage and shine","i know u can clinche the title "and last but not least,"i want you to wow everyone with ur legs". and so thats what im going to do

2 weeks into my dieting,so far so good ab line starting to show a lil when flexed stomach went down a hell lot.my weights belt went from hole 4 to hole 6! and the veins on my forearms and biceps are starting to appear ..well 13 weeks to go jia you!

thxs

2009-05-03T07:32:00.000-07:00

well so far so good.

one week of dieting.cant really tell though but i can tell from the results! my stomach size has gone down considerably.my abs line is starting to appear faintly. and u know what,through losing fat,i gained half a cm on my arms.thats not alot but! it proves u can lose fat and build muscle at the same time!

right so my diet for the past week had changed from what i had listed

this was what i had last week

meal 1: oats+protein shake +a can of tuna

meal 2:chix breast + brown rice

meal 3:chix breast + brown rice

meal 4:250 grms of beef + brown rice

meal 5:2 cups of romain lettuce+ tuna
pre workout:protein shake + banana
post workout:plain spag + 2 protein shakes

total protein:310grams

diet aint that strict yet but as weeks pass its gona be stricter.

strength still there if not more than usual on most days i guess cuz of the supps and beef.

right kinda nice to have my gf making me stick to my diet when we go out,even when i wanna have a strand of fry,she said NO!stick to ur diet!haha....she says she hopes things go well for me cuz she wanna see me shine on stage.hey ...ill do my very best girl! for u my friends and my beloved parents.

i cant tell u how much my parents r behind me all these while.its incredible.seriously

they r my biggest fan,telling me what to work on,helping me snap pics of my bodyfor progression,telling me i aint small when i have my "small days" telling me that i can own the comp even when i know it aint that easy.preparing msot my my daily meals providing me cash to buy my chems.even doing the procedure for me.envious?not surprised.i know im the luckiest.thats why whatever position i get,its for you and i setting my eyes on only one position.well thats the way.u wanna be the best,settle for nth but the best.brandon once told me to be the best,u have to take the champion as the minimal mark.so true.

o yea and brandon my friends say u improved alot...good job to u.u deserve it,u have been brutal with ur training.smth i am working towards cuz i am always known to give up when the pain sets in.i know i improved but theres still room for improvement.

well talking abt my darling,i have been pushing her whenever i train her and one thing i dont like is the attitude she gives me whenever i push her slightly beyond her limit,or whenever i tell her what to do.pls work on that darling cuz i get sick of it whenever u behave like that.but u know what she has been great....leg pressing 80kg ,curling almost 15lbs per hand...strength wise ,u improved tremendously.i can start to see the seperation between ur delts tris and bis,and ur hams and quads.good job dear.and she put on 1kg of muscle from the body analysis! woo!just want you to know if u want to have a body to die for,if u wanna have a body that stands out u gota train in a diff way in a way that pushes urself beyond limits dear.so try not to give me attitude! haha but i can see ure changing.great.

my goal is to put on 4-5kg of muscle and lose 10 percent of my body fat.hope it works.

wish me luck

comp preperation

2009-04-28T08:33:00.000-07:00

met elton just now and had a chat with menger a few days back.

advise is to increase protein level and decrease carbs.

this is my rough guideline come 1st may.

for now its just clean eating.

meal 1: 1 protein shake ,3 protein scoops of oats and 5 hardboiled eggs

meal 2: veg and 8 ounces of chix breast

meal 3:sweet potato and tuna

meal 4: veg and chix breast

pre work out: 1 protein shake and fruits /sweet potato

post workout 2 protein shake and pasta

meal 5:10 eggs and veg

meal 6: tuna

sleep.

total protein:almost 300grams

total carb yet to be counted

i make changes to it by 1st of may.any suggestions pls comment

2009-04-28T08:17:00.000-07:00

photos are not in order.

right so ill start with last week. i have finally started my attachment at swatch group pte ltd stationed at comtech . it surprised me that brands like hamilton,tissot,rado,ck and swatch etc are all under the swatch grp.o the rado watches r loves! but the cheapest even after 60 % discount r like 1400 plus.madness!

yea so we r suppose to make cold calls for b2b(businesss to business) which is way betta den b2c.

the ppls who i called from marriott hotel sbs transit and ritz calrton r all very nice pple!yea so basically our job scope is to generate corporate clients list,make cold calls,formulate email draft to send to them,make presentation slides in case clients ask us to go down to present to them,and visual merchandising.

right so after work last friday,i met up with darling and brandon and their cousins for dinner at suntec swensens! food sucks....pizza not up to my standard,steak is fuckin small for 20 bucks plus.

right after which we went over to marina madarin hotels loungue for some booze. i had house white wine while the rest had their own alcoholic dreams,aint good at names so i wont give any! haha.wanted to open a bottle but i am not a drinker!

ambience was love!

on saturday,after gymming,we went over to east coast road to take a look at all the food stores and restaurants! and i decided to bring yanger to cafe oliv!the food there to me was fantastic ...it was worth the money.its very very resonably priced !menger came over later with a small cake for yang. dear and me treated yang for his meal and meng and me got him a pair of havanas.

hmm...i know im kinda random...as i was shitting in the toilet,i came to think of how lucky i am to have you.

the feeling of you hugging me from my back unwanting to let go...forever giving me hugs,caring abt my safety,caring abt my competition preperation,the thought of u preparing salad on my bdae ,u preparing food for me in the weee hrs of the moring cuz im so tired at ur hse,u calling and checking on me everyday....its kinda amazing how we started off as friends.

come to think of it.

nope...i wldnt exchange u for anyone else.

period.

-ure beautiful in every single way ,words cant bring u down-

2009-04-22T07:39:00.000-07:00

dont let somebody tell you ,you cant do smth.

not even ur parents .

u got a dream? u gotta protect it.

cuz when pple cant do smththing themselves ,they wanna tell u ,u cant do it

u want smth ,go get it,period.

-will smith-

"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place...

and I don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it.

You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life.

But ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward...

how much you can take, and keep moving forward.

That´s how winning is done.

Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth.

But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: You ain´t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody.

Cowards do that and that ain´t me! i'm better than that!

-rocky balboa-

inspiring.

2009-04-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

i cant sleep and so i decided to post smth which i find so fucking inspiring.wanted to post this tmr but i will do it now.

i teared after watching the video.but first u have to read the story to understand.read it den watch u wont regret it.

god bless such a dad amen.

it keeps me motivated in what i do.without a fuss.

I try to be a good father. Give my kids mulligans. Work nights to pay For their text messaging. Take them to swimsuit shoots.

But compared with Dick Hoyt, I suck.

Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in Marathons.
Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a Wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and Pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in the same day.

Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him on his back Mountain climbing and once hauled him across the U.S. On a bike. Makes Taking your son bowling look a little lame, right?

And what has Rick done for his father? Not much--except save his life.This love story began in Winchester , Mass. , 43 years ago, when Rick Was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him Brain-damaged and unable to control his limbs.

"He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life;'' Dick says doctors told him And his wife, Judy, when Rick was nine months old. ``Put him in an Institution.''

But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the way Rick's eyes Followed them around the room. When Rick was 11 they took him to the Engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there was Anything to help the boy communicate. ``No way,'' Dick says he was told.

``There's nothing going on in his brain.''
"Tell him a joke,'' Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns out a Lot was going on in his brain. Rigged up with a computer that allowed Him to control the cursor by touching a switch with the side of his Head, Rick was finally able to communicate. First words? ``Go Bruins!'' And after a high school classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the School organized a charity run for him, Rick pecked out, ``Dad, I want To do that.''

Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described ``porker'' who never ran More than a mile at a time, going to push his son five miles? Still, he Tried. ``Then it was me who was handicapped,'' Dick says. ``I was sore For two weeks.''
That day changed Rick's life. ``Dad,'' he typed, ``when we were running, It felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!''

And that sentence changed Dick's life. He became obsessed with giving Rick that feeling as often as he could. He got into such hard-belly Shape that he and Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon.

``No way,'' Dick was told by a race official. The Hoyts weren't quite a Single runner, and they weren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For a few Years Dick and Rick just joined the massive field and ran anyway, then They found a way to get into the race Officially: In 1983 they ran another marathon so fast they made the Qualifying time for Boston the following year.
Then somebody said, ``Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?''

How's a guy who never learned to swim and hadn't ridden a bike since he Was six going to haul his 110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still, Dick Tried.

Now they've done 212 triathlons, including four grueling 15-hour Ironmans in Hawaii . It must be a buzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud Getting passed by an old guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't you Think?

Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? ``No way,'' he says. Dick does it purely for ``the awesome feeling'' he gets seeing Rick with A cantaloupe smile as they run, swim and ride together.

This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finished their 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out of more than 20,000 starters. Their best Time? Two hours, 40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the world Record, which, in case you don't keep track of these things, happens to Be held by a guy who was not pushing another man in a wheelchair at the Time.
``No question about it,'' Rick types. ``My dad is the Father of the Century.''

And Dick got something else out of all this too. Two years ago he had a Mild heart attack during a race. Doctors found that one of his arteries Was 95% clogged. ``If you hadn't been in such great shape,'' One doctor told him, ``you probably would've died 15 years ago.'' So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.

Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care) and works in Boston, and Dick, retired from the military and living in Holland, Mass. , always find ways to be together. They give speeches around the country and compete in some backbreaking race every weekend, including this Father's Day.

That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but the thing he really wants to give him is a gift he can never buy.

``The thing I'd most like,'' Rick types, ``is that my dad sit in the chair and I push him once.''
And the video is below....

2009-04-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

one yr plus my ocp pictures

2009-04-12T07:39:00.001-07:00

as promised! haha updates on my one yr anniversary and pictures of my ocp trip.

right so our one yr fell on the 30th of march which was the day before i was suppose to fly off to laos on the 31st! so i went back pretty early. i gave her a surprise on the 29th at 11pm by appearing at her room door with a bouquet of flowers....and the look on her face was priceless haha! good to see my pp so happy.

the day after, we which was on our one yr, we went to watch mall cop which was really a waste of money.dont watch it.after that went to the arcade and played some bubble games and i played alil basketball.

we then strolled down to centre point for some yummy licious sushi! at ichiban boshi! the price was pretty resonable and it was delicious! it was a relatively simple day but i had loads of fun with her.

she gave me an addidas balck shirt which i wore on our one yr and i bought her a zara dress and dinner.

some heartfelt thoughts:

well come to think of it....its incredible.

the girl whom my buddy showed me her blog...i found her really pretty.i still remembered there were photos from phuket. she had no make up and i saw natural beauty.haha.

and the first time i saw her at paragon,near the supermarket in black rauhl uniform ....she looked great.

the meals we had at subway cine with buddy and his ex.

the first time at marina square tgt.

the first time at clarke quay tgt...eating turkish ice cream and talking through the night.then chilling out at tcc.

a week later....she became my gf...it sure is fast but i nv regretted at all.

you r the best.....the lengths u go to help me do stuff....i wld like to take this opportunity to thank you....no one can compare to you.

thanks for being my mentor ,my spotter thanks for being my wonderful gf.

that post that u uploaded on my blog is so touching....

only u wld believe in me wholeheartedly.

love you pp

happy one yyr!

p.s s factor is totally shallow and a bimbotic show.

back from laos

2009-04-08T21:37:00.000-07:00

hi guys i have not been updating for quite awhile now.

well if u have been wondering what i have been up to,i just came back from laos yesterday.all i can say is that it was a wonderful wonderful experience.

i left singapore on the 31st of march and came back on the 8th.

i do not have any pictures now but there are some i am going to upload soon after i get them from my friends.made some wonderful friends there...the people there are so nice...the lao pple too are really nice pple...always smiling...and the person i facilated gave me a ring haha...

they really take things seriously.we went there to teach basic conversational english and IT. and our opening ceremony was held at the moe and the vice governer actually came down...there were so many flowers and the tables were arranged in some united nations conference kinda style with microphones and all..we were really stunned. lol...and the villages that we go to...everyone wld assemble outside to receive us and give us a bouquet of flowers..its happeneed at the airport as well. the orphanage we went to ...every assembled just to sing their lao song to us.the people that we taught were between 20 to 50 yrs of age...and they r really sporty...they would sing for us and do everything we tell them to...they dont find things stupid they totally let their ego down...here we are in jeans and t shirt to teach and all of em are in business attires. wow! haha...

the country is really poor...really poor..so i bought alot of bracelets from the small kids and gave it all to my ocp friends.as we climbed the 348 steps to the temple on the hill i got hold of two birds and freed it..it cost 20000 kip...it felt great ...haha...

we ate at restaurants everyday...the food to me ...was fantabulous...it was just beside the mekong river with no boats just one or two sampans in the whole river...and the rest are all mountains....imaigne the scenery...wait till you see the pictures...its really...something i cant describe...some of the restaurants and bars were really classy and i decided to dine there with a few of my friends...the food was great...the ambience i think is nicer than alot of restaurants in spore.

the guesthouse we lived in was awesome...haha.90 percent of the students lived in one while me and the other 10 percent lived in a small one just beside it...but i can say our villa was the most happening one? pple from the other guesthouse wld always crash with ours to play games such as truth or dare, sing songs , play cards,smoke, drink whisky and talk cock till 2 am in the morning...waking up at 630 everyday lol...and bascially we wld crash each others room...sometimes talking abt heartfelt stuff.

the massage there to me was awesome...50000 kip probably 5 us dollars for one hr massage...for spa its 80000 kip ...woo!and basically after teaching we wld have dinner tgt and than off to the night market to do our night shopping...no shopping centres just a night market...but i loved it.u can always bargain and the pple there r so nice...

we played some of their games ..it was quite fun! o and we had a soccer match with em...what i thought was a simple soccer match turend out to be such a formal event! let me tell u how serious they take things...they had a video cam guy there...and we even had an opening ceremony where we lined up and shaked hands one by one and were give flowers before the game and they got their state team to play with us...and all i can say is that they r really skillful.

we visited caves and temples and they r pretty awesome! haha. o did i tell u there r no traffic lights in the whole town? but i have nv seen an accident...haha! no kidding.

o and when one of our students lost his wallet,they actually wanted to broadcast on radio and tv to get it back but my teacher stopped them...now can u imagine how serious they take things...how much they appreciate us for coming?

on the last day,we had dinner and dance where all the students dressed to the nines came down to our guesthouse and we had a buffet and dance the whole night...drank bottles of beer one after another...i had about 5-6 cups of beer..and their beer i find is much nicer than our local beer.haha and i came pestering them to sing songs for us! we sang to them and we danced together traditionally...each of us were given a traditional scarf..i loved it...and my partner said to me...when u go back to singapore dont ever forget me or i will kill you....and he gave me a big hug...i felt like crying there and then.after which we splashed each other girls and guys with water as their water festival was nearing....just an early celebration...haha!after which some of us drank whisky and one in particular got drunk. lol...

atthe airport as they hugged each one of us...i just kept blasting rock music to keep myself from thinking abt it ...it was so hard to control our emotions.

i still remembered...there were drinks like scorpion and cobra in a bottled drink...looks scary...and they had fried insects on the menu.

well there r many many other things i wanna say but i shant keep it too long..

i might have shrank abit..but it didnt matter...cuz i was having a whale of a time and it opened up my eyes...

going there teaches me to reflect on myself as a person...they might be poor and all but they r happy pple...u can really feel the diff in spore and there.we r considered really rich to them but r we happy pple? everywhr i go i see black faces, i see pple rushing here and there ,impatient pple. over there,anyone i smile at on the street anyone i say hello "sabaidee" to they will all smile at you and reply back.do we get it here in spore? no fucking way.it makes me appreciate nature too...nv seen such a beautiful and peacful scenery.

going on this trip makes me just wanna drop all these materialistic thinking...you dont need branded stuff....you dont need gucci ,armani ,or prada stuff to make you a happy person...i felt happy there with no computer..minimal use of handphone,minimal use of television and no shopping centres...just nice lao pple and nice friends.it all comes from the pple around you and from urself.it kinda makes me sick now when someone tells me i wanna get this bag or shirt that cost hundreds of dollars..i am content with the bag i bought for 2 us dollars...the shirts i bought for 3 us dollars and the food that cost only 2-3 us dollars.

from now on,i aint gg to waste money on branded stuff or unnecessary stuff anymore...totally not needed.

overall ,these 9 days changed my life and how i view things as a person.i would love to go back there again.

as for my one yr...i will post it tmr as it has been a long post..haha!

Wowzaa

2009-04-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

Hello! I'm back .
Okay smthg i think you guys would like, I think lah.
Because i assume people reading this blog shld be body-builders?

Few months back , mymy & i were going thru some transformations on bodybuilding.com . I came across this one transformation that made me go "WOW" , and mymy admires her! I was being naughty and put it under my favourites as "mymy's training partner" . HAHAHA i know sometimes he cannot tahan me. Okay what to do ... I'm lame like that!

Here are the Before and After pictures. I'm sure you guys out there who aspire to be great body-builders will be inspired by this woman.

Look at how thick and ripped she is ! Hah okay personally, i prefer her before self. But as a female body-builder, i think she's really awesome!

Know what's her secret to getting so big? Quoted from her - "Be disciplined. Anyone can say they are going to change, but you have to take action to actually do it! Be a do-er not a talker!"

Feeling the drive and energy already? Go work-out !!

JIAYOU MYMY!!! You can do it ! This year is your year :)

Wish You Were Here

2009-04-02T05:43:00.000-07:00

I miss mymy so much ..
He left for Laos 2 days ago.
It sucks cause we can hardly message and talk on the phone due to the expensive charges.
But one good thing, he has autoroam :)
Which means we still get to talk lah , but vvv little.

Oh and we just celebrated our 1 year tgt 3 days ago.
It was great.
I'll get mymy to elaborate further on it when he's back.
Wanna see the photos, go check out facebook.
:)
You can add mymy on facebook and if i think that he knows you, i'll accept.
Because this lazy boy hardly cares abt his facebook , he has some friend requests now which he doesn't bother to accept and i don't think he knows most of them.

He's a lazy pig , hardly even updates his blog.
Okay just to let you all know (if there is anybody reading this blog, LOL) , he'll be back on wed.

LOVE YOU PIGGY MYMY.

a sport with so much to learn.

2009-03-24T03:41:00.000-07:00

my parents are the best imo.i just love em so much. you shld see how much they support me in whatever i do especially in this sport. just imagining my dad goes into my room early in the morning and say ...good ur arm grew alil bigga..keep up the good work. and recently he just told me i shld change my training as i need to put on more mass..been stagnant for too long.my mom prepares my meals in the morning...making sure i never miss a meal.haha i never said these words to you...perhaps not in the near future but i wanna say it here...i love you.

finally a post..haha..yea i know

well have been really lazy ...whats more im down with a flu and ulcers..no training since friday.appetite has gone down the drain...

right , mood has been really bad..gets irritated and flare up at the slightest things..becoming a destructive meanie lol.

dear had been coming over to stay home with me...and practically we just rest the whole day at home...she bought me an adidas t-shirt for our one yr.i love it...its tight fit and shows my frame off.thanks dear. i bought her a dress from zara and taking her to sushi tei on monday. flying off on tuesday sheesh...totally not excited abt it.i haven packed anything yet.

cant wait to hit the gym tmr...though im not fully recovered.

o yea played badminton with jia yi and weihao on sunday night. it was fun ...just wished they wld run more.

my legs have been killing me...did german voulme training smth so diff from the kinda high intensity training we usually do. 10 sets of 10 amounting to 100 reps....my legs cramped twice. and it hurt like hell for the next 4 days...cldnt even sit down to shit properly.haha...

ill take a goooood 10 days off from training and all but when im back,im going to switch my training programme back to volume training ...with what i first started with when i first trained..it worked well...hit worked well too but its time for a change....come to think of it..just 20 weeks plus away from my competition...thats fast...meaning i have a mth to get my body back in shape and a full 14 weeks to prepare for my contest,provided the info on the asian bodybuilding federation is confirmed. this is it..ive got so many lagging body parts to bring up...but for now i am hoping i can gun for the top 3. main 2 body parts i wanna bring up...my lats and my triceps.

with so much time in my hands as im down with flu...i did alot of research and i have got to say bodybuilding its a sport that is soo darn complicated. its not about practice unlike other sports...its about research and knowledge. if you dont research you r not gona make it far ure gona screw ur body up...almost 5 yrs into this sport....with the first 1 yr ..me wasting alot of time as i knew shit and trained like one...i gota say from the second yr till now ,i have been constantly learning and experimenting with training,diet,chems and supps...and i can say as each yr passes i get to know more and more abt them...i get to know more and more abt my body.so much so that seniors ask me for advice...haha my body aint that good but its about what i have learnt.i always open up my mind to everyones advice and what they have to say...it may be true it may be bullshit...but i do my research and sometimes i may learn smth from them.

begiiners often come up to me and ask me if they did this and that ate this and that wld they grow to my size? well i wld just smile at them and say yea why not...but seriously it takes wayyyy more than what they say...however if ure gona tell them what u have learnt or know...they will just end up in a land of confusion.

this sport is so complicated ,its almost all about science. i just learned smth new today and im so satisfied.i can say on my part that this is one sport that you must take a lifetime to fully understand its complexity.

a post dedicated to you

2009-03-04T06:09:00.000-08:00

its alright,i understood why you shouted at me last night...u were really upset and yet i fell asleep while you were talking to me. its not that i wanted to fall asleep ,i just felt so worned out after 8 hrs of work,den balls to the wall training and sending you home made me really worn out,i hope you understand.well at least you did realise,so i no longer blame you.

abt being critical,im sorry i misunderstood what you meant.my fault,dont be angry yea.

she goes smth like that:

-a mix breed between a beaver/bunny/mouse
-laughs and has ocasional spasms like a witch from L4D
-long eye lashes
-cute feet
-loves to play with edges of pillows
-has major spasms when something funny happens
-laughs at anything and everything
-loves the wheel wheel thing
-hates skinny guys but doesnt mind plumb
-wants six pack abs
-loves mango,zara and f21

haha those r just a few i cld think of for now

well besides her ocassioanl tantrums and lack of understanding....i dont blame her anyway...its tough to understand a bbders life.....but nevertheless u di d a great job.

gosh ....how time flies....3 more weeks to one yr.

im glad i met a cute boy called brandon..haha i still remember how i found him cute when i met him...for him i have found you.

i wldnt trade you for anyone else....i mean who wld help me sacrifice their sleep,time and sometimes homeowrk and project just to help me with mine?

holidays

2009-03-01T08:09:00.000-08:00

ar finally. my exams are finally over.

phew...well kinda regret that i didnt start a week earlier...cld have gotten distinctions if i did.but no room for regrets...just gotta really slap myself and wake up.

right...so have been meeting sweetie alotttt recently the past week. well i nv get sick of seeing her lol. hmm we went out,shopping training ,looking for her job and all and she recently fell sick.so i stayed over...took care of her till the next day,sponge her body and all and left to train in the evening.afterwhich xh,keong yanger and me had fun playing left 4 dead at katong on friday.fuckin awesome game im tellin ya...now yanger nips and me r hooked! haha.

right so i trained yesterday at tampines gym and peter was kind enough to actually come from his home just to see me train and spot me. well squatting 3 plates there did make me feel awesome..felt invincible,it aint heavy...but at govt gyms..u feel god-like.however at cali...ure just slightly above average.haha. saw many pple training hard...good job and many wannabe posers. can laugh my ass off. i dont get it with the 24/7 lat spread thing...all i see is empty air sockets in between ur pits.

anyway,met my dear yesterday ,she came over and we slacked at home! haha.though we didnt do much....gottta say i loved every min with ya! lol.

right...so today morning trained with roy and ray....ray picked me up along with amanda and we went to bedok gym...gosh i totally forgot how it operates in govt gyms cuz i was basically making mistakes all the time lol...eating and drinking at the weights area and all...my bad..

right so followed roy and ray to macs of cuz i was eating my chix breast not macs,with plenty of eyes looking lol...same shoes....same built...well not really...lol but above average..lol. at bedok i guess we received plenty of attention as we were considered "better "that ur average joe. well didnt really agree to their training but other den that we talked alot. and they praised me including amanda ..all said i grew bigger brought my back up by alot and even became wider den them...sadly not thicker yet...lol

right afterwhich met weiliang and we took a lil spin in his car around my area.went to parkway and met zhen ying who works at best denki only to find out she failed diao..lol. so was introducing weiliang to great quality earphones and headphones and he bought my crossroads..lol. he was really impressed by them.right.. came back to my place and met max...chatted for awhile and got a lift to katong whr we were killin zombies again. lol.

after plaaying met peter at cafe olive and god i gota recommend this place to ya..its my 4th time there...the food is fantabulous and fucking reasonable. the set dinner is 16.90. its the cost of a fucking dish from fish and co! wth! o it comes with soup of the day,an entree drinks and dessert.i gotta tell you...its so worth it...nice ambience...reall comfy chairs...great service....huge portions of food....fantastic almost fine-dining like presentation"particular abt that" lol, most importantly...excellent quality of food...unlike hans. its really quality fresh food...i had salmon linguine, green tea, mushroom soup and mud pie. yums!

and yes brandon we will play every week! haha! love that game...

wanted to go to science centre but its closed on friggin mondays...what luck! right...so maybe we will kayak or play badminton tmr! i totally cant wait to see you tmr sweets! till her pics and all ill upload soon!!!

take care peeps!

o check back within 3 days for an article i want to post up.

happy valentines day

2009-02-15T09:36:00.000-08:00

sorry for the long delay as uaual. i had never ending tests and presentations for the past two weeks.

right i haven been meeting her often.say twice a week for the past two weeks.o yanger finished his exams too.so we went shopping at lonsdale and he bought me a t shirt and he bought himself a pair of training shoes.now flower,keong me and yanger has the same pair of training shoes.right so yanger stayed at my hse on friday and we played left 4 dead! it is so fun i tell you! omg. haha! right the day after trained and met sweetie below the gym at coffee bean and gave her a stalk of rose.she really seems to be more understanding nowadays.she waited without much complaints and cheered up after seeing the rose.

right after we headed over to my house and no one was home! haha so after slacking and taking a shit,we headed to ntuc and did grocery shopping.we had loads of fun.after which we headed back home to prepare cooking.throughout the whole process ,she was very patient and cooperative doing everything i asked her to from cutting the onions and garlic to making countless trips to the refrigerator helping me take ingredients. ure the best! haha

first up was an appetiser called "prawn quesadilla sauteed with garlic butter and cheese"

second was the "stuffed garlic mushrooms salmon and white cream sauce garnished with rosemary and oregano herbs".the sauce is specially made by dearie and it tast bloody awesome! haha!

afterwhich we both had a small tub of ben and jerrys each.

right for v day i gave her a dress from forever 21,a gym shorts ,a singlet from lonsdale ,a card from myself handmade,with a 2 hr drawing that dont really look like her lol, and a rose.

o and she gave me a handmade card too..very very nicely decorated took many hrs too! and she gave me a customised nike t shirt with my nickname mymy on it. haha! i love it a hell lot dear. i love the card too.

this vday isnt a first for me but its a first celebration for me and for her.its really simple...a vday spent at home but you know smth?vday shouldnt be what it is today all commercialised and all.its not about the presents not about whr u took her to eat and all..its about quality time spent tgt.this is the best and most memorable one ever for me.

as i listen to unbreakable ,it just brings me back to that very moment.and how time flies..its almost a yr..to be exact...1 and a half months to a yr .....

the rest of the photos i will post it in 2 days time...be sure to check back!

till then i will only be posting next till after my exaMS which is on the 23rd..take care !!! train hard study hard!

i am god-like

2009-02-02T05:19:00.000-08:00

everything i want to sum up about myself..

i am the man responsible for who I am. When I look in the mirror each day, I stare my creator in the eyes. I am responsible for what I have and will become, I am accountable for what I will or will not accomplish.

I believe in myself, I bow to no man and my only critic of any consequence has walked every mile of this journey in my size elevens.

I am the architect of my own destiny.

Nonetheless, I live each day feeling that I have barely scratched the surface of what is my potential and I refuse to ever concede that I can be bound or limited by anything less consequential than my own earthly demise.

In a world wrought with critics and cynics hurtling doubt and detraction from all sides, this belief allows me to stand my ground and stay the course, steadfast and resolute.

i believe in this saying “if one does as God does often enough, eventually one will be as God is”. Some would call that blasphemy… To me, it feels like something worth striving for-a goal worthy of my aspirations.

To truly be iconic, one must keep pace with icons. To be godlike, one must keep company with the gods.

-adapted from G Diesel-

dont come to my fucking face and tell me what the fuck i should do with my life now or in the future.i dont need your worthless comments or anyone else to bring me down.

dont ever critic my lifestyle ,my sport infront of me or you will regret it.

as the saying goes ,a job worth doing is worth doing well.

it might not be what i want to do in the future,but all i know right now is ,it is what im doing and will be doing in the near future.

who do you think you are when no man not even my parents can stop me from achieving what is ultimately mine?

im my own creator...i owe my life to no one.so dont fucking tell me what to do .

i believe by now ,there shouldnt be any questions about my lifestyle.comprimisations? no way in hell.

fool

happy cny everybody!

2009-01-25T08:04:00.000-08:00

"to be the best,you have to proclaim u r the best and work towards being the finest they have ever seen"

ah! had a great week before me! completed almost all my projects except one! well on friday , dressed up and met dar in town.off to lido to catch ong bak 2! my fav !!! haha....gosh the action scences r crazy! and i must say tony jaa is a fucking good martial artists....not only does he knows thai boxing,he knows chinese martial arts!!! and he cld use so many of the chinese martial arts weapons...hes awesome...the show was good..only the ending....erm...i hope there is ong bak 3...cuz the ending ...is like...er...go watch it ..i wont spoil it.

right sat,gymmed early!! kinda crazy...carried two belts arnd...one is my dipping belt and the other my weights belt.my mom refers to my dip belt as a torture belt.haha! and looking at me train...dar dar said why must i push myself so hard....well...its a compliment to hear that...got one big competitor to beat! afterwhich...went back to my place and watched the most evil women in history...o and read on gills de rais on wikipedia...for all of you who r sadistic..go read up on him...he is somewhat worse than vlad tepes draculea..and he is sick enough...and by the way those two are real pple.

well cny eve today but is tayed home the whole day...wanted to train legs today but my back hurts so much from yesterdays training that i cldnt squat properly.ill train at tampines on tuesday i guess.well nth special today infact i got quite irritated at my aunties...dam rude...but i nv fucking cared.right so i bought a fall out cd today called "folie a deux" i gota say its really darn catchy! haha!!!

ooo!! after everyone went back...my dad and me watched ip man!! it such a nice show too!!!! alot of action and brutal beatings!!!!haha that show rocks! just like ong bak 2! my dear has been feeling so pmsey these few days...sometimes taking out on me like 3-4 times a day...but its ok!!! i was bad to her last time too....my temper was terrible.o and i wanna say saturday!!! we laughed like crazy...i was being ultrally retarded...i was laughing at my own reactions till my abs hurt...and my dear nearly spit out what she was eating during dinner...haha!!! gosh...haha whenever she comes to my hse..ill feed her with lots of protein....just like sat..i cooked for her 4 eggs for dinner...sometimes it wld be salmon or chix...must build muscles like us k dear! ure on ur way...can see some great arms and shoulders coming out soon!

o and for trainnig...im going back to basics...i realised something...the basics r so dam important..the bench the deads the pull ups and the squats...i realise my legs lag the mass it used to have last time...why?cuz i have not been doing free squats for a longgggggggg time...and pull ups build ur lats like a bitch...cuz i saw this guy form my sch...just by doing pull ups...his lats..r like 747s....do ur deads for lower back like brandons....so for every training now..im gona start with sqauts...and ull be surprised at how much size im gona bring on to stage this yr...haha! till here!!!

~churchill~

success is the ability to move from on failure to another with enthusiasm.

joe is right

2009-01-14T08:33:00.001-08:00

i love working with my new colleague called joe.

he used to be a bouncer and a chef...all are what i wanna be..

others find him so so to work with but i love him.we cant seem to stop talking from the momenti start work till we end...that explains why we have been taking longer to complete our task.

he taught me alot abt rships and what to do in the army what to do in clubs with ur gf and all.

well the most impt thing he taught me is abt jealousy.i asked him wld he get jealous if pple stare at ur gf or her boobs? he said nope nt at all.if u r so scared that pple wld stare at her,den why not just lock her up at home and not bring her out?if pple ask for her number...as long as she dont give den u no need to get uptight over it what.unless she bluff u la...den what u want to do to her up to you.if not no need to feel jealous or uptight.unless they try to be funny and touch her breast or smth..if that happens...well looking at you,dont tell me one punch from you cant break their jaw?i dont believe..so nth to worry abt!

so fucking true.

projects

2009-01-10T19:58:00.000-08:00

right....finally 2 projects done and 2 more to go.sheesh it sure was difficult working with the past of 2 grps.my tourism grp...some cldnt make it like almost all of the time,some dont participate in discussion,some shows me attitude and some or rather most gave me shit work den doesnt make sense.i got bloody frustrated when i saw what was presented to me 3 days b4 submisson.only cld be descriebed in one word.crap.so my dear gf and i worked on it hard!!! from the day b4...to the day after and both of us stayed up till 4am in the morning...we changed about 80 percent of their work.i didnt ask them i dont care.yea so now i see attitudes shown to me.well fuck you.

procoi?was left on my own to die and rot...luckily my old classmates gave me a hand.thanks pple!

well well....past week had been heavily involved in project that i didnt train with yanger and met my darling seldom.infact we didnt even go out..basically to the gym and home.just two more to go! wanna continue my grades for this sem! haha.anyway big thank you to my dear for understanding me !cant wait for our hols gona be fucking fun!!!!!! with my dear yanger and me going out!!! yanger staying over!! and all...haha woohoo!

past few weeks had been great everyone in sch commented on how much i have grown! haha! and my baby was like....what happened to you!? haha!! o and i was happy when my friend a national rugby player benfong looked at me and was like..ur shoulders r to the maxxx man! train me also! haha..a huge compliment.till here! i smell stick frying! im off!

fuck 2008,embrace 2009

2009-01-01T06:58:00.000-08:00

my most lovely gf

me when i was bloody fat at jan at 95kg

me when i dieted for 6 weeks at 82kg.

first of all,happy new year all you oeple reading this.

well! a recap on 2008,it has been one hell of a roller coaster ride for me,im sure for some of you too.

beggining of the year,for those of u who had been following my blog since this yr wld have known what had happened to me.for those who only discovered this blog later,well i deleted some of the post as my current gf aint happy with them,but its ok.i was emotionally hurt deeply cuz of one fucking slut.i still cant believe she did those stuff.den someone whom i gave a second chance to for his new life threatened me all at the same time.im glad he's non existant in my world anymore.

right and so i got closer to people such as brandon,he became my buddy and i wld always turn to him for entertainment,comfort and advices.we trained and grew tgt.

afterwhich i got to know beverly sweetheart,who happened to be brandons sis.haha.for one yr plus i knew him,i didnt know he had a sis.anyway,since march the 18th,things had been mostly great for me cuz i finally found someone to spend xmas ,my bdae and my new year with.she had been one hell of a supportive gf,though sometimes not(in my bodybuilding lifestyle that is) i totally understand ,not many do.but she had help me in my studies,my stats to be exact,for one week,she came over everyday to my house to teach me,till night .sometimes i wld go over to her hse and she wld stay up till 4am to teach me and u know whats the best thing?she studied for me and taught me.cuz i was lazy last time.gosh.thanks dear for the past nine months,it had been so hard sometimes but there were many happy moments ,unforgettable ones too!

right speaking abt studies,it had been a drastic change for me,ask brandon he knows.from a person who failed every single subject at the beggining of the year,to my results which i got back last week.i received one distinction and 2 A's.thanks for the encouragement and believes ...to brandon and my sweets.

than i got into muay thai and i dieted for my comp,ending up losing 12kg,looking in the best shape of my life so far.

and of cuz there r many other unhappy incidents with me and some other pple which i choose not to disclose.cuz im not a F up person.

this year also,i had grown to the biggest i had so far.

also seeing my friend thrash everyone at this yrs juniors,he deserved it,had the whole package and he worked hard for it.good job lex.

well well,thats all i can think for now.as for new yr resolutions?i dont believe in noting down a whole f-ing list of things u wanna do or change abt urself.cuz i had been doing that the past few years and i believed many of u did too.but i bet ur ass it didnt stay.so for me? just a few things.no 1,to push myself as far as i can go to win the national jrs weight title.no 2,to improve on my temper.no3 ,to continue with my good grades.last but not least ,to save at least 2k the next yr.

so for those of u who r setting goals,dont bull shit urself,just set less than 5 of em.

right for now,its a whole new yr,for those iron buddies who r reading this.listen up.its a whole new yr.so what does that mean?it means it's gona be a whole new ball game,ure gona push urself to a whole new level.get me?

well one more thing to say.only applying to bbders.new yr or xmas,u get ur game right,yea u can party but fucking remember,it doesnt mean its rest day.theres no such thing as wait a day or slack a day.u dont sleep at 4 or 5 am in the morning cuz its new yr or xmas or ur f-ing bdae.cuz its a 24/7 job.u may say its ok.its just a day.well a day can fuck u up.a day can mean u losing the title to someone else who didnt misuse that day.

think abt it.

xmas post

2008-12-28T07:22:00.000-08:00

right! first of all im gona say merry xmas to all you peeps.first of all ive got to say it has been a fantastic xmas for me.i hope it has been for all u peeps too! season of giving!

haha.ok i bought a game for myself for xbox 360 console and its called saints row 2.those of u who have a ps3 or xbox 360 console,i have got to recomend you this game.its awesomely amazing.if you think GTA 4 is great,play this ! it beats grand theft auto 4 in my opinion.the game strategy and gameplay is the same as GTA 4 but why i love this game so fucking much is becuz its more gruesome,more violent,more brutal and its all about customization.from customizing ur character to his tattoos his hair,his crib ,his gang,cars and a hell lot of ladies and sex.haha!!

just get it all right,ull never regret it.

right so next im gona talk abt my xmas celebration and xmas itself.for my xmas celebration which happened on the 23rd,i brought my girl to catch a movie called pride and glory if im not wrong.i love some parts of it,where jimmy slams the victim against table and chairs,knock half their teeth out and stuffing a torch light into the guys throat,ironing the babys face...well almost.you get the idea..violence.haha!

right after,we went to glass house for dinner.we had salmon as usual i never had anything else at fish and co. she had ny fish and chips and soup of the day.afterwhich i sent her back.a simple but fun filled day! on xmas day itself,went for midnight mass,after which went for lunch with my parents and relatives in the afternoon.lunch was ok wasnt fantastic,prefer if it was at spore swimming club.played a lil saints row 2 before heading over to my girls grandparents hse.saw yanger and his whole family .had dinner over there and i love the swing at their grandparents hse.haha yanger after ur exams lets go lan tgt! yap i bought my mum a sovil titus watch,my dad an ipod shuffle my grandma wine and my brother a shirt from g2000! i got a pair of loafers from pedro from my dear and i bought for her a pair of shoes from guess. everyone is happy with their presents!!! right thats abt it.

training wise,nv felt stronger!! haha...dumbell pressing 110lbs per hand ,feel so god-like...just 15 lbs short of the heaviest dumbells in california fitness!! haha!!nipples joined cali too and so will raymond!! everyone is improving and training hard,menger yanger ,all looks pretty darn good now....so hopefully we can bag home three gold medals !!!

merry xmas everyone!

2008-12-24T05:47:00.000-08:00

im sorry for not posting for quite awhile!

i will post after xmas for sho! many many pics to upload till than ....

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!! have fun! party hard! but get ur ass back to the gym the next day.

finally

2008-12-18T09:40:00.000-08:00

well!

i wanna post firstly on beverly,aka baby! haha.well beverly and brandon are back! miss them alot!....they sure look alot darker! brandon looks like a thambi.my gf? im not used to her being tan for sure!she looks ever prettier please! haha.gosh six days of not talking to her or seeing her was terrible.its like smth being ripped apart from my life! haha.seriously,i really wasnt used to it.it seems she had fun on her trip so did yanger!its a nice place i wish i cld go there.im glad ure back in one peace.the 6 days u were gone,it made me reflect on the tihngs i did that was wrong,and the happy times we had.especially walking to clarke quay,reminds me of the times we werent tgt yet.seeing u after one week was..pure heaven.and im glad yanger is back so we can train tgt.its been awhile since yanger and me hanged out .lets hang out soon!

and i gotta say,congrats to lex for being the welter weight champ and mr junior singapore.u trained hard for this man.from being someone who cldnt get into the finals to someone who wld stand above everyone else.he is the sole example that nothing is impossible.the moment he stood on stage,his legs blew everyone off.his mass,blew everyone off,basically,i was watching only him and not the others.he is a really humble guy,more juniors shld learn from him.good for you and ur gf lex.im sure she is really proud of you.i hope to be like you next year bro.he was the rippest and biggest on that faithful day.

a response

2008-12-11T18:59:00.000-08:00

a response to ur comment.

true.hot bodies never fail to attract people.but thats just part of the equation.if having to eat so strictly ,forcing food down ur throat and literally gymming till ur eyes are blood shot,till times where u push so hard so far till u tear ur muscles,damn we wld rather not do that just to get attention.yes i agree many pple who hit the gym are vain,cuz they want a broad chest and nice big arms to attract attention.i have nth to say to that,do what they want.however,im talking abt pple who train to impress the girls and walk like they have "wings "they can flap,obviously so wide i can stuff a soccer ball down their armpits.many of my friends that are biggger than me ,in the national team and all,dont walk like that,so im just saying,dont try to be one when ure not one.

you cant really say that we are vain cuz we know girls dont want a muscle freak,guys wldnt want a muscular girl but take a look at the above.why wld someone who is a normal and beautiful lady wanna look 10 times bigger than an average guy?so that they can attract guys?i dont think so.

yea if u want a ncie body hit the gym.but do u think having big arms and scrawny legs looks nice?i dont think so,those are the types of pple i scrutinize,cuz they look like crap,even normal pple wld look better.

i dont put pple down,not at all,i just tell those vain pots not to waste their time and my time ,asking me for advises and me telling them what to do what to eat how to train when to sleep and all they say "damn,i cant train so frequently,i need to study ,i cant eat these and that ,that is crazy i rather eat chicken rice , i cant sleep so early all the time,i club every wednesdays and weekends" well fuck you. that was just wasting 15 mins of my time. so u c these r the pple im talking abt,who i dont give a rats ass whether or not i put em down or anything cuz they wont go far,they wont see improvments,they r just wasting their time.

i dont put pple down cuz i encourage those that r overweight or skinny peeps to trian hard give advises if they listen,they will see the results.i love seeing them putting in the effort .

so now u get what im saying?

selfishness

2008-12-04T18:36:00.000-08:00

selfishness.i said it before i said it again.to go far in whr u are.its all about being selfish,self centered.i nearly lost myself by focusing too much on other priorities last time.but now,its all about me.in my 4 yrs of nt being in a rship,i went far...from being any normal kid around the block to pple recognising me for what i do ,watching me wherever i go what i do what i eat.take for an example my new class.they stare whenever i take my chix breast and brown rice out and stare practically throughout the whole time im eating.i dont care.i dont care everytime i eat my meals at the crowded sch canteen sitting alone and everyone who walk past giving curious looks.i dont care when pple look at me like im a poor fuck as i sit on the flight of stairs eating my meal looking downright pathetic.cuz as pple start to know me,or even those that dont,they will start convos with me...recognising me for what i do."hey ,ure the guy that always eat at the staircase alone right?"fuck yea,that's me.

jsut a few days ago,i was training at marine parade cc gym.did some heavy duty training,dipping with 2 plates hanging down my back.curling weights i nv curled.as i took a rest,some guy came up to me to ask me about his chest programme,what he shld incorporate,how to train his arms,how to get traps like mine.shit ,he even follows what i do.he thinks whatever im doing is correct.i didnt drink even a sip of water during my whole training,and he thought that by doing that it wld be more effective.gosh i laughed to myself.its just becuz i nv brought my bottle thats all.o and before i knew it,after talking to him guiding through his shrugs,half the gym started doing shrugs.haha. god like.

meals,fuck others who think ure too troublesome or think ure such a wetblacket whenever u have to eat when ur times up.they say things like everytime we do smth u have to eat ur meals,it gets irritating.fuck that.when we have to eat we have to eat.

my girl wants me to spend more time with her.its not that i dont want.but i have so many things to juggle,and shes always saying i put bodybuilding before her,its always abt bodybuidling,and when wld i ever cherish her.i do cherish her.just that no matter what i say,i cant seem to make u or for a matter of fact,others around me understand that is aint a sport,its a lifestyle.u dont just train hard in the gym and thats it.no...its way beyond that,its what you do beyond the gym ,what you do way beyond the comp day that determines where u place on that faithful day under the spotlights.this game is not won on that day but the days that lead up to it.my parents cldnt understnad,but now they do.i dont expect u or others to.i dont care whether u do or not either.

selfishness is required of you to strive in this game.its said many times before.this game aint for pussys or lover boys who just go to the gym to build arms and chest .this game is for those that r willing to sacrifice,to push way beyond the pain during the last reps of training,its for those that r nt afraid to let others stare at you in the things you do,its for those that r willing to take the lonely road to be named a loner for those that are not afriad to lose everything else just to get to the top alone.its a one man game . so for those lover boys who just want to impress the chics a big middle finger in ur face,i will show you no fucking respect.

my message to you

2008-11-26T07:20:00.000-08:00

before i go to bed.

there is message i wanna bring across to you my dear.and to all you fellow warriors out there,im sure u wld agree with me.

im know the past few mths you have been receiving alot of my bullshit about bodybuilding.well its hard for me to explain to you face to face so perhaps i cld explain to you here.

firstly ,in the first few mths of our rship,yea i cld skip training,meals and all just to be with you or go down to ur hse to pass u a rose or cookies ,u loved it and i loved it when u appreciate all that i did,however it was becuz i was straying away from my goals.as time passed,i realised i had to get back on if i want to achieve what i set out to do all these years,all the blood sweat and tears ,the respect i earned from my peers as someone who wldnt skip training or a meal no matter what the outcome,that big brotherly image that i have created in my secondary school that has even withstood till this day,told by teachers like a folklore.that image had started to crumble i cant just let my goals go down the drain.

do not be mistaken,i wld love to commit myself as much as i can in this rship.however circumstances such as work,school and training also has to be taken into consideration.damn,i dont even have time for my parents and friends these days .However,ill do what it takes to make this rship work,but sometimes please understand that i need to attend to other things.

this lifestyle,if i had met you before it,i wldnt commit myself to this lifestyle ,this sport.i wld commit myself to you.however,you came in yrs after i started this lifestyle.you have to understand ,that this is a sport unlike others,shit it's too demanding to becalled a sport.other sports like basketball and badminton,yea u cld stop playing weeks on end or u cld play it at anytime of the day ,this sport?nope.time waits for no man.every min counts,you r on ur feet 24/7 ,365 days a week without a rest.no "wait awhile " or "pauses" in a day.it begins the moment ur eyes open and only stops when ur eyes r shut tight for a goodnights rest.every meal,every hr,every training counts.i cant afford to say"ill set aside trainng time or my meal time for awhile so i cld resolve certain stuff" i cant.if i do that ,pple will overtake me.thats the reason to todays unhappiness,it was becuz i had to train by a certain time cuz i dont want my meal time to clash or my stomach feel empty or the supplement rendered useless cuz i had to do smth else.

yea i know,im making it sound as if my lifestlye is more impt to you.it isnt.its as impt as you.

like felix said,a rship shldnt be ur life,it shld compliment it.

i was pissed with hydher as i trained with him last time as he always kept me waiting.however as time passes,i realised that what he said is true.we heed perfection in the things we do.therefore the wait.i understand , i nv blamed him.

sorry for the times that i made u wait.

i know its my fault for nt informing u b4 this rship began that this is what its like.my bad.and im sorry.

i nv regretted getting with a girl like you.cuz i know no one wld understand me or be patient with me or support me the way you do.my mentor,mybestfriend,my lover.

without a doubt i can say there r many guys out there that likes you,with ur looks ,ur heart ur charm.its priceless. im sure they have the time to be with you whenever u need them.just like carmens boyfriend,cuz they have nothing else to do besides schooling.im sure they wldnt cut u off and show u all the attention u yearn so badly from me.

however,saying that.i remember what frank mcgrath once said.this lifestlye is a killer,its a shithole."True, she’s pissed, but she’s trying to make it work. Let me tell ya something, in this game, you can get far by yourself. But if you got support—from your family, your friends, your girl—life is just a little bit easier. And trust me, this girl is solid gold. You ever find a girl who will put up with all the shit we bodybuilders go through, you hold onto her". that's the reason why i always spluge on you whenever i can,dresses after dresses,bags,heels expensive chocolates and all cuz i wanna reward you for all the bullshit u withheld all these mths.yea i know u aint materialistic,but i know girls cant resist them.haha. jokes aside,it aint abt material stuff,it's my way of saying thanks,cuz i know u wld love em.

if u ever leave me for someone else,i wldnt blame you though i wld be downright upset,but i understand.not many girls can take my life in a shithole.

till here,

i just wanna say,i love you dear.

BUT I KNOW SMTH....AFTER READING THIS POST....YOU STILL WONT GET WHAT I MEAN!! HAHA!

sorry for the long delay!

2008-11-22T19:29:00.000-08:00

super caught up with my stuff nowadays.

anyway, have been really busy with my stuff...

right alil brief update on what has been gg on

on rship:

abt a week more to our 8th mth.so far the longest rship for me. yea and im really happy in this rship so far.she has been really caring and all....yea def there r times when we wld just argue and argue but overall it has been great.i bought her a dress last mth and a new black pair of black heels from charles and keith for our 8th mth.glad she loves it.glad we talked things out and resolved our diff yesterday.hope it will be a smooth sailing one from now!

on life:

well kinda pissed off with myself.i lost alot of my stuff this mth.my lonsdale shoes my friends weights belt and so on.have not been catching up with my friends forawhile now.fret not!!!!

i took off next sunday so i can spend some time with u guys.lets have fun next sunday!!!

exams r coming up,gota start mugging my ass off from tmr!!! must do my best and pull my grades up.subjects r fucking tough this sem ,grp mates r pretty much the most fucked up so far.fucking ass dragon boater in my fucked up grp is fucked up in the head.wanna do on fucking cosmetics on our website creation.the moment i heard it i was fucking pissed off.talks shallowly like some brainless dog.but i dont give a fuck,im gona do on my supplements and gives a rats ass to you.balls to u if ure happy or not gay ass faggot.u dont know shit abt cosmetics and still wanna touch onit.i was practically laughing when he was explaining some stuff to teacher.brainless senseless ass.row his boat till he lost his brains in the kallang river.

sigh my grandpa is sick now.i know i sound bad and all.but shit,his hospital bills r mostly paid by my parents and coast thousands of dollars.i may sound evil but i hope he leaves soon.die peacefully,end his suffering and my parents can save more on this recession.

on training:

well,put on abt 2.5kgs in the past 2 weeks.look slightly broader 2 weeks later.but still i dont have that "wow" effect yet.i hope the stuff r genuine.starting to doubt those shit.fucking ass betta buy my stuff.

right.ive seen many stuff these few weeks i wanna comment abt haha. i cant stand fucked up assholes who walk like they have lats like jay cutlers.when they r not even above average?thanks for behaving like that so i can poke fun at u and laugh my ass off.seen pple in raffles training and wearing like they r gona seduce girls.with shades and all.dog.training in sch has been funny.props to some of em whose body r solid!!! props to those who r below average or average but training their ass off.good job work hard and soon ull see progress.but fuck those that try to curl weights like they trying to fuck a girl.quit rocking ur body ass.and the pple who follow whatever exercises i do trying to see if they can lift how much i lift. well at least when i wear my dipping belt and adding 40kg along with my bodyweight,they shut up and all they can do is stare. haha!aggression during training is pretty much good.i get fucking jacked when i think of one of the trainers who keeps staring at my girl.i know very well that soon...one fine day ill be bigger than anyone else in california .....so watch out for me.haha.

buddys off season

my off season as off now. 86kg

o did i ever bloddy mention my gf lost a hell fucking lot of weight?haha...she eats regularly and she trains hard.not to our extend but everytime i ask her this"do u tihnk u can increase the weight?" she looks at me with anticipation and says yes. everytime she gets on the leg press first thing shell do is ask me to load 1 full plate each side for her .woohoo! she does 40 mins to an hr of cardio after training and doesnt complain whenever i ask her to do these or that.a true champion.let me show u a pic from her bdae in june till now.look at how much she lost.u go girl!

look at the diff in the face

sorry i am so vulgar on this post.i dont know,i feel kinda cranky nowadays.

till then.

shut the fuck up and train.

ill be back!

2008-11-18T09:05:00.000-08:00

hi guys! so sorry for not updating.

promise pomise you ill update on thursday night! be sure to check back!!! haha

have some nice photos and viedeos to share with ya.

been busy with work,sch,my girl,bodybuilding.as for now....just note that im growing like a bean sprout haha!

its been awhile!

2008-10-18T20:51:00.003-07:00

the photos r not in order!

my new comp
the house in town

just a stone throw away from cine,meritus manderin anmd taka
cine at night

demolish!

foolin arnd in cold storage

hydhers and my salmon

dears card to me

escape!
gelares

sorry ive not been blogging! stayed at my other hse as my dear said in town and i dont have a comp there!

ok! many things have happened which is good! our 6th mth was spent at dempsey.phew we walked from orchard mrt to the british council and my dear was wearing heels.i was perspiring like a pig! so we decided to take a cab.the place is prettty nice! only kinda humid.we went to ben and jerrys and had ice cream there....budget!o i forgot to mention she made a card for me and gave me a sunflower.dont look at me like tat! ha!

right so last week! we went to escape like finally its not raining ! a clear sky.we went there at 630 if im not wrong so we sat a few rides but only the fun ones! its crowded man.right first we sat the go kart.i drived like some idiot and was speeing banging pple infront of me over taking them and almost crashing into a wall and my dear was screaming like crazy.lol.next we sat on the wild and wet! it was sure bloody fun the big drop both of us screamed!!!! next was the inverter....great for drying clothes...haha! and lastly,she drove the go kart.i underestimated her but she accelerated all the way and proved me wrong.we came in first again! then we went to gelares ...my first time going! it was yummy! all in all i had fun these hols.thank you dear!

right so these r some pics of my renovated hse.it cost 30000 bucks.dam we threw away a hell lot of stuff! o and my bro and me got 2 new 19 " lcd desktops!

and these r my pics of my parents other hse in town.i had a fabulous tan there...everymorning wake up ill tan for 20 mins by the pool.

other than that,have been training with the same old pple yanger xh and pipaoz.

was suppose to meet rach nana ben and felix but all cancelled.was pretty unhappy but i still went out with felix nevertheless.caught up with hydher and we ate a hell lot of salmon! my brother gave him his drumsets.

right so next week is the starting of sch and ill have like only 2 days to spend with my dear.working schooling training.sheesh...hell of a week i must say.right i need to head for work now. till then tata!

o one video u must watch .brandon showed me the link.ewww! haha!

its been awhile!

2008-10-18T20:51:00.001-07:00

Livin' the Life of the Rich N' Famous

2008-10-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

To All MyMy's Faithful Readers;
MyMy is unable to update his blog
due to the fact that he is staying in his apartment in Orchard
while his present house is undergoing some renovations.
And the place he's staying at now ,
Has no computer.
No Computer=No Updates.
Alrighty, Do Miss Him!

And for Updates on His Life.
As You All can Pretty Much See
from the Picture Above,
He is Very Happy w Me.
HAHAHAHA. :)
Overstatement.
But It's True.
And He would like the Whole World
to know that,
He Loves Beverly,
His One & Only.

HEAR FROM MYMY SOON!

With Love,

Beverly

2008-09-28T09:00:00.000-07:00

brandon showed me this article from animal pak that got me jacked up.i wanted to share this with all of you.

We've all been in that situation or condition where we want to go further, but fear we may fail, or think that we're not good enough. The key word here is "think". "Damn," we say to ourselves. "What would it be like to enter that squat competition?" But instead of going forward, we tell ourselves, "I could never do that." How the hell do you know? Have you tried it or are you letting fear and your small mind control your life? What's the worst that could happen? You could lose the competition, so what. They'll always be more competitions. Don't allow yourself to think small.

Listen, if nothing else, remember this: You will always be presented with choices in your life. Are you going to spend your time on this planet living a life of "What if…" scenarios? Or are you going to go out there, take a deep breath, and take a risk? At worse, you'll fail and learn from your mistakes. But at best, you'll achieve more than you could have ever possibly imagined. Don't be part of that group that will never know the sweet taste of victory. It all begins with the right mental attitude. Rock 'n roll brothers. Show the weights no mercy.

ONLY YOU, MYMY FUFU WEIWEI ZHONGZHONG

2008-09-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

It's You and Me,

& all other people,

and i don't know why i can't keep my eyes off of you

Thank You for coming into My Life,
making it Complete.
Stay Close, Don't ever Go.
I Need You.

Always Yours;
Beverly.
With Love

BLOGIE!

2008-09-19T10:12:00.000-07:00

alo! elo! HELLO!

haha! its been awhile i know!

ON RELATIONSHIP

what can i say? my gf is the best.things have been gg well once again.past 2 weeks ago or smth we had lots of arguments again cuz i was kinda temperamental due to some stuff...but now its so much betta.its going to be half a year and we r still gg strong.i had to take a supp paper cause i failed my project and guess what my darling came to my hse 2wice to teach me and after work i wld go down to her place to study till 4am in the morning.and she actually sits up and wait for me.she sits patiently beside me guiding me in certain stuff even she is unsure of.i appreciate the thought my love.the day i took my supp..it felt like a breeze.cld do almost every qn. seriously if only i worked harder.my dear is right.im not stupid im smart just really lazy.this time i worked my ass off and acutally find stats easy. most of my classmates say its really tough and all.but seriously...its all about the effort.

ON LIFE

life has been great caught up with hydher once in awhile..weihao ,betram too and felix came down to my place a few days ago.this sunday gona celebrate bdae with weiliang and friends.when im in a rship yes i will have lesser time to spend time with friends but i wont leave them out ill still meet them.i hope u guys understand that i have sch ,work ,gym and a gf to take care of.that explains why im so caught up.and today i went with my dear to adelphi to get my earphones.firstly we went to music by design whr i got my grados last time.we both sat down on the couch and we borrowed the SR80(my model) AND RS 1.and i guess that made her realise why in my opinion grado is the best.its like a live concert playing infront of you.the bass and clarity is nth u have heard b4.gotta send my grado for repairs!

next we went to jaben.where i tested out the crossroads mylarone bijou 2.for a pair of earphones,all i can say is they r pretty darn good!and i have not even let the drivers "burn in "yet.cuz whenever u buy a great set of audio headphones or earphones u have to let it play continuously for 2-3 days to let the drivers burn in.thats whr the full potential of the audio instruments set in.yea and so i bought my crossroads mylarone bijou 2.and along with it i got an amplifier.for all you audiophiles out there,if you really wanna listen to quailty music,buy the grados you just cant go wrong! if u have a budget ,get the crossroads mylarone earphones they r fuckin good for a pair of earphones.

ON TRAINING

ar..finally after 5 days of not training,im back.today felt pretty ok..i had quite alot of form and was energetic through out.thanks love for supporting me!now its hardcore all the way!!!

prison life

2008-09-09T11:10:00.001-07:00

everytime

2008-09-07T10:26:00.000-07:00

Everytime - A1

Lately, i'm not who i used to be
Someone's come and taken me
Where i don't wanna go
If i knew
Exactly what i have to do
In order to be there for you
When you are feeling low
And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now i know we can revive it
All the love we left.....

Everytime i kiss
I feel your lips
And everytime i cry
I see you smile
And everytime i close my eyes
I realise
That everytime i hold
Your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart
Could ever find
And i have never felt this way
Since the day
I gave your love away

Save me
I've fallen from my destiny
You and i were meant to be
I've thrown it all away
Now you're gone
It's time for me to carry on
But baby i just can't go on
Without you by my side
And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now i know we can revive it
All the love we left...

Everytime i kiss
I feel your lips
And everytime i cry
I see you smile
And everytime i close my eyes
I realise
That everytime i hold
Your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart
Could ever find
And i have never felt this way
Since the day
I gave your love away

happy 5th mth!

2008-08-31T10:37:00.000-07:00

pics taken from honeys bloggie!

weeheee!!!

ok! happy belated 5th month honey!

right so this is the first week where i actually spend 7days with my darling! haha! although somedays only meet up for one hr plus but! i get to see her so often! HEHEHEHE! it feels weird if i dont meet her,i wonder how i survived meeting her 2wice a week when we were schooling.

anyway! i wld love to thank my honey for teaching me stats! she actually studied my book for me just to teach me....shes amazing ..she stayed up with me till3am in the morning just to revise with me too! whr to find tell meeee!

anyway,on thursday! finally went out, to velocity to get my trainng shoes! typhoon by lonsdale! its bloody nice i tell you. flower was admiring my shoes lol...lets all go get tgt 3 of us! my dear says she wants to wear with me too! haha!

had a lil tiff but was fine within an hour! my bad!

afterwhich headed to star buckies!the air corn was a killer!

right so on to our 5th mth!

hehe!we spend our 5th mth at the gym and at raffles place! simple ..infact the simples cuz i was kinda broke and due to the fact we had to train. but pleasant!

o btw dear joined cali with me to train with us! only sometimes i tihnk she is nuts..she forced me to carry additional 30kg which is way off what i can do! and i actually do it...i mean please dont push me till like tat! haha.o and while doing leg press at 16 plates,the thing fell cuz the catch bounced back...my knees hurt! but they r fine now!

right so we went to coffe club to eat dessert! ate mud pie and fruits fondue and i tihnk i had too much chocolate till i was doing nonsensical stuff....looking at the pics u wld know what i mean....lol.

right and today,i didnt go to work so i cld spend time with her too!went to the gym with her did calves abs andalmost an hr of cardio.went to lau pa sat to whack hokkien mee and roti john! yummyz! today felt like we were in love again.we were to touchy and pdaing in the hawker lol!

felt great!

anyway just wanna say a big thank you to you honey for the past 5 mths,i know we still have a long way to one yr ,but it had been so much fun the past 5 mths.this rship had been unlike anyother.this is truly memories of our own.i wanna say thank you for being there for me,teaching me even when you dont know,helping me do stuff even when u know its harmful to me,gymming with me,doing whatever i do training how we train and listening to me,being my atm machine!(of cuz i pay her back).lol.but yea,ure...one of a kind..

thanks dear.

and yanger! thanks for being there too! o do ask cheryl to come over to play badminton with us!

superhuman steroids

2008-08-30T11:42:00.000-07:00

honey ill update when i wake up.

in the mean time i wanna share this documentary to those that r using roids and for felix who is doing a project on roids.hope this helps you.

this is based from the national geographic channel.

:)

2008-08-28T10:22:00.000-07:00

hi guys!

finally exams r ova!

ill update later on ! check back lataz!!!

our 5th month in 1 one day! cant wait!!

rofl

2008-08-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

why are u trying to spite me? lol

thoughts

2008-08-23T10:37:00.000-07:00

tsk tsk tsk....still too small to stand on stage...i wish to become a bodybuilder ...

heedher with his ice holick!

my burger!

pibaoz teaching me my work!

pibaoz cooking with me!

yummy! made by pibaoz and baobao haha! our love!

ok let me update what i did this week! haha...met up with hydher like finally!...at 12am ..cycle from marine parade to tanah merah to eat! haha...ate burger fish and chips and fries!! yummy! den cycled back home took abt 40 mins for a one way trip. den went to take a look at hydhers phantom motorbike! he drove me arnd the car park and i was like a lil kid. all the best to ur girl man! hope shes the one!

right as i promise my pibaoz i will update.

hmm! finally after 5 days of not seeing my bao bao,i got to see her on friday!dam happy please!

my mood kinda ruined her day alil....cause my diet wasnt going well due to my braces.

anyway we lazed around ...slept for awhile,treat her to lunch while she treat me to dinner.den she started to teach me at night now i know alot more pls!thanks dear!

sadly she had to go back.

sat ! she came again! haha...we slacked...cooked lunch tgt den slept awhile again.afterwhich we both skipped 600 times each for cardio yet to hit 1000! haha.

o yea she tot me stats again! haha...a great teacher...sent her back...came home and watch a documentary on steroids.

sigh i really miss her alot alot..5 days is likr torture....these 2 days were simple but i love it!after exams..cant wait! gona pia work earn$$ so is my honey.den we meet everyday for lunch and we go out on fris and sats...play badminton,go to the zoo,snow city,giraffe,glass house,wood rest,secret garden,science centre and cook tgt bake tgt,slack arnd.....omg its gona be so fun! but i really hope i passs my stats paper....i really hope!!!!pls lord help me with it!

hmm what they say is right.why be clarke kent when you can be superman.but than again,at what cost?

after my ace card,i promise i wldnt use it.no more....its time to let my body fuction normally,and let my parents and dearie not worry abt me.

my workouts r gona change from next week,due to me coming off it.sheesh im so gona hate this....my hormones r gona be at an all time low ....its gona be crappy..lack of strngth and all...i hope i wont lose too much strength.afterall ive been accustomed to superhuman strength the past 2 mths.920lbs leg press,110lb bicep curls 2 plate bench 9 reps without support ,100lb each hand for incline dumbell press.haha..it may be light to some of u...but eh quite good for me know! haha.

fridays,sats=mambo day!

2008-08-17T06:22:00.000-07:00

sweetie in my fav shirt

fridays and sats as usual!

got a b plus for org com ..totally not what i wanted,expected an A.its ok :)

right after sch,i went over to peters hse to pass him some stuff.hes looking bigger now!haha and i aqquired some info on certification to become a P.T.

omg what a coincidence i met Tze Khit,owner of pt.com.sg.he asked me to get a BEC ,CPR AND ISAA cert and contact him so he can get clients for me.great side $$!

training this week has been awesome so much angst and power its unimaginable.leg pressing 880 lbs after hamstings training and squats unimaginable power.haha! training and shouting like dogs in the gym...felt great!

right ! after which sweetie came to my place LATE! haha...but its ok! she studied while i caught up with sleep.went to church and went to sleep again.was suppose to hit the gym but i was so tired ,she got pissed with me cuz she really wanted to gym!

so i immediately woke up to bring her to jog at ECP.she sure was bloody great for a first timer!she was da tired till she cant carry on but i forced her by saying everytime i catch up with you ill spank ur ass...ill walk for awhile while she ran...when i saw her slowing down ill chase after her and she'll run for her life cuz ill spank her ass!and she ran all the way back!what a fantastic gf i have! so bloody on!

the day after,she came over,we slacked,she studied while i caught up with sleep again! haha!..we went to the gym while i trained with ben fong,she was training beside me! shes bloody awesome..leg pressing 110lbs ,curling 10lbs per hand rope pushdown 40lbs! woo! she was always behind my ass during training asking me to jiayou i love it! right after went home to take a bath before going for mass.afterwhich we had dinner with my parents ! and sweetie and me were bloody famished! ate like hungry ghosts!

she says her muscles are aching ,i guessed ive pushed her alot cuz i can see she really wants it.i cant wait for training tmr! haha ive bloody been eating like a pig today...probably consumed 4000 calories today.

all the best for ur papers sweets!

and someone pls help me with my q method!!!

sheesh another 5 days b4 i can see her!!

faster come!!! now!

My Motivation, My Happiness, Bliss.

2008-08-13T12:27:00.000-07:00

It's so late, yet I don't feel like sleeping...
I'm done w studying, i still do not want to sleep.
So i decided to post for mymy =)
Met him today! (tues) At his house.
Had breakfast first, before mymy accompanied me to the doc.
Super sweeeeeeet of him pls! Becos' he insisted he went w me.
Then i studied at his workplace.
He's such a sweet boyf luh =)
He forced me to drink lotsa water!&, he made sure i eat.
he looks after me really well =)
& on the phone, i kept nagging/scolding him.
he also nvr get angry uh! Sorry, i might've been a little too harsh.
But what i say, is also for your own good (:
ON OUR WAY........................
TO ATTAINING OUR PERFECT BODY.
WE WILL DO IT TGT! =)

All the Love in the World, For You.
xoxo.

i hate this feeling

2008-08-10T10:47:00.000-07:00

SMALL TINY FUCK

i hate this feeling.

i woke up yesterday ...knowing i was smaller.my baby thought i was kidding.but my dad slapped me with reality..yes i do.

and believe it or not i was lazy to go to the gym.

sweetie scolded me and forced me.i thank her for that.

now looking at sweetie,looking at all the guys who wants to get with her and flirt with her.it makes me think back.

1 min ago,everything just flashed back.

why i started in the first place.

becuz of the hurtful,unforgettable remarks she threw at me.

becuz other guys cld easily take my love one away.including friends.

becuz i felt helpless when he threatened me.

becuz others make me feel like i wasnt worthy of anyone,becuz they think they r betta.

becuz no one cared abt me,just an out cast in class.

becuz i knew the time i started,that i wld become something great,i wld take the stage by storm,one day...to bring shock and awe to everyone who looked down on me,despise me who never thought i wld be what i am today.

to those that look like they didnt care in church,left in the lurch.felt like an idiot an outcast,no one looked or bothered.

at work,no one bothered to look at me,those hurtful remarks at work ,those comments from pple i dont know,those pple who fucking judge me,thinking they r betta,saying im not worthy of her.

i remember,

and now,i feel the fire...even deeper and stronger,to redeem myself from those misery.

with every meal, every set,every rep, every drop of blood and sweat, feeling the lactic acid burning...excruciating pain marked upon my face...with every ounce of strength,ill push...ill go and on...till i cant go a single rep...with dynamic brutality,i shut out the doors of distraction.and ill remember those times...never letting go with such vengeful hatred...i push...till i get where i want to be...

for those who stood by me and believed me all these yrs,that ill be smth great...for my parents who stood by me even when i have to harm my health,for my gf who stood by me each and every time,(only this time,i know i wont lose you to anyone else,cuz none can compare to me )this is for you.

witness my cost of redemption like never before.

bliss

2008-08-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

ah! haha i got to spend my fridays and sat with sweetie :) she came down to my workplace on weds! and she bought me a box of chocs from chocs expensive!

sweets was dressed to the nices on friday.so much so that guys she didnt know were flirting with her in her lecture hall haha! i dont get it,why when im in the lecture hall with her,i dont see this kinda nonsense it wld be fun haha!

anyway she looks so much betta now! after gymming and all .

what i really wanna blog about is how caring she is.i ran up the stairs to play with her and i fell down.cutting my shin and now my back hurts badly.yanger was thoughtful to take ice for me! at first everyone thought i was playing till i stayed in that position face flat for minutes.yea it kept bleeding but sweets helped me attend to it!ure bloody sweet

more pics and all when i have the time...ciao!

:)

2008-08-07T09:20:00.000-07:00

im glad that ure alright baby :)

others only see and judge our rship on the surface.somehow wanting to break us aprt

but both of us know we're way stronger than this.

and besides every rship has its ups and downs just that they fail to realise it.

i feel that its impt to tell you i love you :)

and thanks to weihao and diana for always standing by this rship

really?

2008-08-06T20:45:00.000-07:00

you did talk things out,i listened ,i apologised twice told you twice i wont do it again.

i dont get why ure making a mountain out of a molehill.just over a word "brb"? its not like i scolded you you or anything ,i even apologised.

i treated you nicely you went on and on.when i tried to reason with you,you said i am impatient.

seriously,what other options do i have?

i said goodbye cuz i didnt want this senseless argument to go on.cause really,it really seemed i had no options .

think about it.how i felt when u said if u had someone else u wldnt turn to me?how do u tihnk i felt when i saw that?

put urself in my shoes.how wld u feel if i said that to you?

u said im very impatient?right...everyone knows im much betta and constantly improving.even you told me over the phone that im so much betta.what an irony.

delayed post!

2008-08-05T10:27:00.000-07:00

right im so sorry i never posted anything on our 4th month.

so now finaly i have the time,ill post about my 4th mth!

basically,i met sweeite at her sch and she wore the same dress b4 we got tgt so i decided to bring her to the same plaace!(actually it was arranged) haha!

yea we had some quarell and i seriously did not look at her! but everything was ok in the end!and so....we went over to clarke quay and walked around central to shop for our journals.GOSH IT WAS REALLY SOPHISTICATED!....so confusing luh the place! but its pretty nice! many restaurants and a hell lot of jap restaurants.

afterwhich,i decided that we both take a tour on the sampan along the river! honey was excited and it was a really cool and romantic ride!both of us loved it.

right after we had turkish ice cream and sat at the place where we sat the last time we got tgt..reminiscing the past.gosh i never though we wld be tgt than!you were like way outta of my league or so i thought.i wanted you and i got you! gosh that is the best thing that can ever happen so far!

right after,sweetie took me to billy bombers where she treated me and i ate an all star burger and she had nachos...dam they were spicy! right after i sent sweetie home and we drank a lil...and got alil tipsy haha!

i slept over till abt 5 in the morning before leaving.gosh...halfway sleeping and i crashed to the ground not knowing what the heck happned! it was hilarious.

the weekends went great! fridays and sats always a blasts with her!got to spend sunday with her too! o i was majorly disappointed that i did not go to escape theme park.i really wanted to!sit the rihts with beanie sweets and smelly.and watch the sunset,play games win prizes and just having a fun time.it wld be really great....o well...hols than!

till here,just wanna say,our rship wont crumble cuz of what they say.i know you love me for who i am and so do i.just want to say,im proud of a gf like you...really proud.

continued

2008-08-05T10:16:00.000-07:00

wld love to thank buddy girlfriend and girlfriends good friend diana and weehao for supporting my stand.and being behind me all these while.

to those that judge.

well you want to talk abt appearance wise.yea i may not be good looking and all.at least i have a nice body.unlike maybe you,skinny ,fat,ugly ,flat fucks who have nothing.

do you have what it takes to treat her the way i treat her.i bet not.so,
if u cant make it in looks nor body nor character then i suggest u just shut the fuck up and go get yourself an 'EXTREME' make-over

a pot calling the kettle black.sheesh.

they can say what they want,it will never break us apart.no one has the right to judge.look at yourself in the mirror before judging others.my mom said "let them say what they want,cause nth can stand between us.ultimately she knows who loves her best ,the most.all they want is to break us apart cuz they r jealous they want us to get agitated thus falling into their trap,but no....u just got to laugh it off at what childish behavior they have"i believe in what goes around comes around.judge pple and others will judge you.conclusionget a life.stop being lame.

glad

2008-07-27T09:37:00.000-07:00

some pics on myself .

i dont exactly have a proper title for this.

well we had a tiff last night which really upset me.but its all ok now.one thing gd abt us is that we always solve it within 24 hrs...

so far things have been going well.lesser arguments.with ever quarell we are drawn closer tgt.

friday after meeting her at her sch,went over to the heartlands.gosh not been there for 2 years to say the least.that placed changed alot!

ate at new yorks.bought her her fav ice cream and apple struddle and walked all the way home from there....quite a distance but felt like nth with her beside me.

stayed over at night and smelly boy followed ushome and trained with us .afterwhich darling and smelly boy treated me to steamboat! i ate till i cldnt move while he vomitted.thats how much we ate!haha!

somehow i never felt happier in life.such a good buddy and such a wonderful gf.

somehow it felt like i was fallin in love with my honey bunny all over again.

it felt great.

a short post but thats abt it!

2008-07-26T22:11:00.000-07:00

My heart burns through
My chest to the floor
Tearing me silently although abruptly
my heart feels sick and it hurts when i speak
as i tried to see
tried to understand
this is not what i hoped for

there must be some serenity..

lets just get on with our lives...just the two of us....can we?

tears

2008-07-23T19:57:00.000-07:00

all puffed up.

hurt from those words.

mom and dad knows smth is wrong.

i didnt say a word during breakfast.

im tired.

2008-07-20T06:36:00.000-07:00

♥MYMY, VERYVERYMUCH!

Sometimes we do spend a lot of time quarrelling! Haha. Total waste of time y'know!

yeah. But somehow, after every quarrel, we feel closer. It brings us closer.

All the new pictures are in your phone! hurry hurry upload some up plssss =)

You're gna finish work soon! Awaiting your msg, so i can call you! (:

i love you so much, mymy.<3

everything changes

2008-07-18T22:28:00.000-07:00

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel

I am the mess you chose
the closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
'cause the wounds never heal
But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn how to feel

Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
It's more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
It wouldn't matter anyway
It wouldn't change how you feel.

2008-07-07T16:03:00.000-07:00

Find me here, speak to me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You still my heart, and you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now

lets see what i have to say.

2008-07-02T09:38:00.000-07:00

i know u r reading this.and i want you to.

lets start off with,do u think i like you too?

i was initially alright with you,after what you said the first time,i let it go...i helped u in ur project when im not obliged to,i didnt get anything in return but i helped you.

wow and look at you,ure so damm bloody grateful.yea she confided in you when we quarell and i know ure protective of her.thats nice.but you have to know when to draw the line between friendship and relationship.

yea no doubt u can blog anything u want.but get ur facts right before saying such stuff.me clinging on to her?that she supports me and i do not supprt her in what she does?that she is the one making our rship work while i dont bother?that i treat her like a princess but i dont want her to behave like one.

right get this right once an for all.

it takes 2 hands to clap for a rship to work.if u think that shes doing all the work.think again my friend.its both of us working hard to make it work.

yea she supports me in what i do and im grateful for it.she knows it.who says i dont support her in what she does?yea she likes shopping and ive got nth against that.only that i dont want her to shop too often and she doesnt.so i dont make any noise.i dont want her to wear too revealing clothes and thats for her own good too.i dont want her to club and drink cuz there r many other healthy entertainment besides these.i dont want her to shop so often so that she can save for the future.well i think out of the box,i think about the future,not just the present ,"friend".its for her own good.if i didnt support her,i wldnt set aside a sum of money for her to shop once a mth or eat out somewhr with me.think abt it.

yea i treat her like a princess but i dont want her to behave like one cuz somethings she old enough to do on her own.i will willingly to some stuff for her,but if gets too ridiculous,ill ask her to stop ,cuz im not a dog,im 19 yrs old.im a guy i have my dignity.so yea.but i just wanna say,i love her alot and im willing to do anything as long its not ridiculous.

take a look at urself before judging me.there r so many points that she and brandon wants to get across to you but they cant cuz they r afraid of losing you.well let me tell you.you r jealous,you r selfish.i wont go on cuz i dont want to make this hard for anyone.reflect upon urself on why im saying that.

last but not least

friendship and relationship dont cross paths.

i know you love her,so do i.

ultimatly she knows how i treat her.and whether or not im worthy of her love.you have no right to judge.you're just looking at things from the surface.

just as i dont interfere with my friends or your relationship,we give advises but thats about it we have no say in it.

i wish for the same ,

from my parents and me we just wanna say stay the fuck away from our relationship.

birthdays

2008-06-30T19:50:00.000-07:00

yeap finally 19th now.and im proud to say its the best birthday ever.from last week tilll this week.i had been celebrating my dears bdae,mom and dads bdae and mine yesterday.wow im sure growing fat!

ive long awaited to spend my bdae with someone special.it never came.till this yr.and boy was it the best bdae ever.for my close friends.lets celebrate my post bdae the following week when we r all free...im sure it wld be fun!and thanks alot smelly for the slippers! i love em!

im glad to spend my bdae this year with my parents as ive not spend my bdae with them for the past 2 years.

last but not least my dear...o boy!

she bought for me 2 singlets from top man a s polo shirt from esprit with a total amt of 70 bucks ,she gave me estee lauders pleasures for man yesterday which cost 60 bucks.she came to my school after hers finished ,though we might have had some hiccups here and there,im glad it turned out to be a wonderful day!o and she brought me to one rochester...heard that?ONE FRIGGIN ROCHESTER for dinner.dinner cost her 90 bucks.and nots all can u believe it!?she brought me back to her hse and asked me to cut the brownie cake that she spent the whole afternoon making for me yesterday!and i received an angpow from her parents...

i seriously cant tell you how sweet of a gf i have.my whole family were shocked to hear the things that you did for me.

im thankful for the girl :

who wld always listen to me.

who wld cook for me at midnight when im hungry.

who who monitor my training and meals so closely.

who wld assist me in mypull ups in her sch or mine even when shes dressed to the nines.

who bothers to dress up for me every friday and sat.

who spent a bomb just for my bdae.

who spent the whole afternoon baking a cake for me.

who is ever so forgiving whenever i flare up.

who is unafriad to show her affection to me in her sch or my sch.

who loves me for who i am and always think im hot.

who supports me in everything i do.

who is there for me every second of my life.

you see...theres no need for you to feel inferior towards her.theres no way ever,she can compare herself against you.like i said she is pretty,but ure prettier.she being slim and hot?where alot of guys go after her everyday?u wanan be like tat?our rship wld suffer.i dont want that.u r already slim and i think u have the most beautiful body.not to mention ur heart....just filled with so much love...

no one can compare...period.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MY LOVE !

2008-06-29T18:50:00.000-07:00

Haaaaaaaaaaappy 19th Birthdaaaaaaay! (:
I hope you'll enjoy your day!
Yay!
I'm gna see you laterrr. and i can't wait ! :D
i love you, sweetpea.
<3

Will you say that sentence to me Everyday?

2008-06-26T10:21:00.000-07:00

Boyfffff is sleeeeeeeping now !
Got off the phone with him not too long ago.
i miss him so much uhhhhh.
Nevermind, i'm seeing him laterrr~
(:
Anyway this smelly boy is so naughty !
I said i wanted 1000 roses & 1000 tulips.
Then he said he'll give me 1000 turnips.
Whoah, that made me laugh non-stop ! hahahaha.
my boyf is daaaamn cute luh (:
I don't think he's fierce at all. Haha !
Love my latest blog post ?!
Be honoured okaaaaaaay,
from the bottom of my heart alright! (:

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelooooooove.
I LOVE YOU SUNSHINE!

back

2008-06-24T03:26:00.000-07:00

LOVE

argh...the past few weeks had been great.i cldnt ask for more.it had been one of the greatest hols since i get to spend it with her.she had been a great gf and she had been helping me out in my bodybuilding lifestyle both in training and some other stufff which its best not to be mentioned here.met her on monday at her sch,which was yesterday.got to spend a few hrs with her,she slept on my lap while i was doing my work in the library,it was pure bliss.thanks for accompanying me while i waited for ur brother.remember,you dont need to feeel inferior to her at all.like i said everyone is unique in their looks in their traits.yea she was pretty,shes hot ,she dresses skimpily ,many guys went for her even my closest friends and cousin.they all wanted to get into her pants.she did not support me in what i do,she made fun of my lifestyle.she wasnt an ideal gf.she wasnt someone i wld marry in future.it was really miserable when im with her cuz i never know what she was doing my back.

you?you are different.you are pretty as well .in fact i think ure way prettier than her.i know many guys who wanted to get with you you know who are they.zen,nic ,shawn and many others.they were disappointed when you chose me.i know there r many others that want to be in my position like you told me,the pple in ur sch who look at you...who give all their attention to you.not to mention there r some who want to get into ur pants too.im a guy i know that.

i used to be jealous and all.but i know i need not be cuz i know u r true to me .i know that i outbeat them interms of physical appearance (body and height not looks though) haha.its one thing that keeps me motivated in the gym to outdo myself ,cuz i know theres no way they can compare to me.

anyway,which girl wld wait for me for 9 hrs at my workplace,who wld accompany me to my workplace for my frist day of work...wait for me at the end of the day with food in ur hands and my protein shake worried that i did not eat enough.there r many other stuff that u did for me and i wanna say i really appreciate them.no one can compare to you.no way she can compare to you.i swear.

its just memories of you and me.beverly and myren not sarah and me.ok?

TRAINING

it feels good to slowly be putting back my own weight,gaining back my size.im glad to hear that hydher is gona hit the gym once again.its been awhile.when u left,i wasnt as motivated as i was when both of us were in the game.remember what u said to me?
i was the flawless sole example of hardwork, commitment, disipline, pain ,sacrifice and dedication ....and im going to bring it back.i miss the times when nth stood in our way,when felix u and me shaved our heads bald to signify a new era.we treated this as do or die.7 meals a day without fail.an hour late an we wld snap.no forms of entertainment such as drinking partying,or gaming.nth of that sort.

remember the times when we wld look at each other in the gym with that passion burning,though no words were exchanged,it was clear.we wanted the best out of each other.though we lived just blocks away,we were so caught up in our competition with each other that we did not meet up on weekdays.only on sundays,where we wld have the same meal tgt.salmon and rice.

now that ure back,its gona get going for me once again.next yr...its time to hit the stage.i knwo when we hit the stage next yr,all my brothers who r reading this.zen brandon hydher myself and others.i know when we hit the stage we wld make history not just marking time.i know we have what it takes to wow the audience...i have absolute confidence that each of us will be bagging a top 3 medal next year.shit...i mean the gold medal.no one trains for second.second is the first loser.everyone trains to win.lets uphold the glory once again.

it pisses the shit out of me when pple talk shit in the gym.u go there to lift not to preach ur nonsensical shit.i hear guys talking abt supplements and steroids and growth hormones like they know everything.well firstly,this things r meant to be kept in the dark,you dun talk abt it.next what u guys r saying r total rubbish.SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TRAIN.

pple who dont know me just like my buddy brandon and my gf.when they first trained with me.they were wondering i get so worked up when pple interupt in our programmes or talk shit.pple like felix and the rest knows why.some pple thinks we take this game too seriously.well let me tell you,you dont go balls out,someone else will.there is always someone who is going to come up stronger than you.never be complacent.

i hate pple who r nth but cock suckers,who suck up to those who r famous or bigger than them.to pple like roy ray rahim peter an tong and so on.they dont talk to minors like us unless we prove ourselves.i know it all too well.pple who never spoke to me think im some arrogant fuck with my dark glasses and someone who hardly speaks not even smiling to them.shit ,sometimes i dun even apologise when i bang into you in the gym,but thats the way i am.when im in the gym,i think of a few things.to rip apart the person who is standing between the mirror and me.i think about wowing the audience next year.i think about doing my friends gf and family proud next year.last but not least,i tell myself if i dont this rep or set,there will be someone out there wanting to beat my body and snatch my gf .no i cant let that happen.not till my body drops doing what i do.

till than

shut the fuck up and train.

Hearts to You, My Happiness Pill

2008-06-17T01:36:00.000-07:00

This Darling of mine is at work now.

I hope his arm gets okay soon, he's always making me worried.

Anyway this blog is like my blog,

i'm always updating for him .

Tskkkk. He's like so lazy uh!

I miss him so much D:

However , i'm meeting him tmrrwww!

I'm so excited. I can't wait to see what he planned for me.

Whether it's big or small, it doesn't matter.

I'd still appreciate it, cause i know he loves me v much.

His workplace-

I'm feelin' so bored now.

Srsly, my grp mate pissed the shit outta me.

I wanna call my baby to complain,

but he can't pick up the phone ):

And baby,

if you wanna do it,

i won't stop You.

I will be the supportive girlf.

I won't be upset or angry.

But promise me, you'll take care of yourself.

I don't wanna ever lose you.
Haha ohkaaaaaaaaaay, i'm being so mushy.

Butbutbutbut, i really mean it alright ! (:

I keep replaying Yesterday! Smthg's very wrong with me :/

I MISS YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU. Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait,can't wait for tmrwwww! :DD I would like you to sing to me, plssss (: HEEHEE.

Lovin' you every second.