thoughts

its 1am,while waiting for the 10 eggs i just consumed to digest partially b4 heading to bed,let me pen down my thoughts

its nt abt what i place at the end of the day, whether or not i win the gold or whether i may be out of the finals,i mean of course everyone trains to win, no one trains to lose.having said that, i wld say,its more of the journey ,the journey over the last 7 weeks that had taught me so much and got me to interact with many different kinds of pple.things that ive learnt over extensive research,trial and errors,consultations and exchanging of tips face to face or online made me mature over the last 7 weeks more than what ive learnt over the course of the past 4 years.over some research and meeting up with pplean,i learnt that tips from some bodybuilders who swear by distilled water....who keeps advising me to take em..its total thrash. it deflats you and does nth else. i learnt that i shldnt be more than 10kg above my my on season weight if i wanna retain muscle and not crash my diet,i learnt that i can still take tuna ,steak and eggs and not like what some senior bodybuilders who keeps telling me off ,even pple who have nv competed b4 telling me that i shldnt consume them. i learnt that i shld drink gallons and gallons of water and not sip them as they make me watery .bull fuckin shit as muscles r made mostly of water. i learnt abt many diff drugs and which r best for what ,their uses and half lifes, i learnt that you dont need to pen down everything u eat,but listen to ur body and trust the mirror go with ur gut feeling,if u feel too deflated...up ur carbs...if u feel that u need to lose more or ure too bloated drop ur carbs,increase ur cardio frequency.i learnt that u shdnt do bullshit training like high reps that other senior bbders tell me but keep ur training short and sweet and as heavy as possible with maximum effort and contraction and so so so much more...and many more to come in the next 5 weeks and 3 days.


and of course along the way, i met many nice pple like iswandy who is always there to monitor my progress ,always acknowledging my presssence whether or not i see him,unlike some dog trainers at cali gym.adrian travis elton and lex who r always there to help me whenever i have any queries. my competitors whom i knew recently who added me on facebook as well as in school.and of course many entertaining stuff along the way such as....having to cut 15kg in a period of 4 weeks, 5weeks out and no abs but love handles. know shit abt the 7 compulsory poses, train and diet but not aiming to get into the top 6. things like that....makes my life right now pretty entertaining.

tempers flare easily ,not that its a psychological thing cuz it really isnt,im telling myself every min that its all in the mind..heck but my body responds differently...right brandon? calorie deficit low carb diet along with drugs that increases ur already agressive nature and hungry state = a fucking pain in the ass...

yea...gf complaining that im returning to the horrible self i once was in the relationship,weights flying arnd the gym ,yelling at each other ,wanting to break whosever neck that stares at you blatently whether in admiration or disbelief or discontent but yet we dont feel the slightest bit apologetic.

well well....5 weeks left...when all is said and done,wonder what kind of a trial of destruction we will leave behind....and how much cleaning up we have yet to do....till than....all the both of us know is....times running real short...and its a hell of a race against time.